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Sunday, October 30, 2005

today is a freakin hell day... everything i do is not successful... liew eh~ first... mornin be cashier... 4 plus count money... short of $6.60... mus pay back kaoz~ then at nite... take over bar... kenny do cashier... broke 3 glasses... the munchie mouse bowl, small glass & big glass... freak! wtf happened to me man... then everybody's like buzzin bout in bar... wat they wan sia... i know yeanmeng wanna help me... thanks thou =) then leslie ask me wanna go out to service not... won so stress... then i say nvm... i can handle if noone bothers me... naomi keep goin in & out to ask me if i'm alrite... yesh... i'm alrite =D... lol~ only kena cut again... 4 cuts... borrow $4 frm yeanmeng to pay for the shortage first... zul gave me a bar of milky way chocolate... but i left it in the bar freezer... forget to take lol! so i tell yeanmeng to take it... yonghao fetch me hm again... lol~ not workin also volunteered to fetch... zul say my eyes very big... lol! big meh... alrite only... =) tired man... haiz~
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Saturday, October 29, 2005

dunno y so many ppl appears to be angry today... wat happen sia... lol~ i today alrite la... not really happy & not really angry nor sad... jus average... only tat if someone irritate me i confirm will scream at him/her... lol~ jus now when i bit pek cek tat time got one customer ask me for serviette... i almost gonna scream at him cos i tot he's one of my collegues =p... naomi is 'hot' today... yonghao also... yeanmeng durin closin tat time also look quite sad... dunno y... lol! but i know wat's naomi's prob =) nvm la... i also bit shocked... but jus dun bother & u'll be happier =D tomolo mus wake up damn early man... dun feel like goin there by train... so early... 9 mus reach store... sian man... dunno my dad can fetch me go not... haiz~ cut my thumb jus now... again! y mus i always injure myself sia... haiz~ the cut is deep... oh man~ then yeanmeng also scalded himself jus now... bar is always a dangerous place... geez! i dunno y nowadays... ppl tend to joke & sometimes they hurt ppl's feelins but they din know... ok... nvm... but the prob is... when we joke back... they got offended... wat's the prob man... y joke with us when u cnt take the joke urself... geez! funny ppl... ok la... now gonna go scold ppl liao =)
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Friday, October 28, 2005

worked til 9 then go off today le... whole day very sian... nth to do & dunno wat i'm thinkin bout also... like whole day very moody... & i can guarantee tat if someone scold me jus now i confirm cry de... =) lucky noone scolds me & stuff... jus keep askin y i look so sad & angry... i'm neither sad nor angry... so dun worry... & cos not doin cashier & bar so i dun wanna stay till closin =p... amjad keep thankin me for nth... lol~ funny manager aka my most fav manager ^-^ rumours start again... liew eh~ nvm... din really go pay attention to it also... i think zul's the most observant one... he's the first to spot my moody behaviour... i'll smile... but in a wierd way thou... geez! wilson sent me hm today... lol~ dunno y he so free today... dunno y so many ppl like to send me hm... hey! i live woodlands lei... lol! nvm... at least go hm not alone =) rain so heavily... thunder & lightning like the God is angry like this haha! durai is really makin us goin crazy... next wk i haven plan schedule he already put up le lo... waliew eh... but lucky both public holidays i workin... think got double pay on tat 2 days ba... workin straight 6 days in a row only sunday rest next wk... liew~ still ask me to plan my schedule for wat... stupid durai... naomi say durai told someone he will sack those who dun like him & stuff... lol! u think we care?... sack la... i dun believe no other jobs wan us... lol! ridiculous man... sian... i cnt teach ppl how to do milk de... as in make foamed milk for coffee... only can do it myself... =D clever mah =p... get to take away the excess baked beefballs =p... umjad so gd... zamil also =) help me remake the beefballs frm tomato sauce to alfredo sauce... nice sia!din take much order today... cos i jus dun feel like takin order... i really not happy with the new crews sia... they think they senior than us... try to teach the newer crews... comeon! they tot they know everythin isit... we the longer crews also dunno alot of things yet lo... liew~ & when they teach the wrong things... our fault... stop actin clever la ppl! jus know ur own standard ok liao... like me... step by step... know means know dunno means dunno... me also dun dare to teach new crews lo... jus think wat say wat... scared teach wrong things then die... hmmm hope tomolo will be a beta day =)
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Thursday, October 27, 2005

went to wilson's hse to slack... actually should go sch to pay money first de... but too many ppl queuin up... so, lazy to queue also lo... then went straight to wilson's hse... his pc spoil... haiz~ nth to play also... lol~ then decided to go play bowlin at safra... lol~ quite fun la... din get to go out with carol gan... paisei... my mind is in a mess now... dunno wat i'm thinkin... dun ask me wat m i thinkin when i'm in a daze... cos honestly... i dunno wat m i thinkin & my mind is jus blank... so i cnt ans u... it's like i hav been thinkin alot... but no... there's nth i'm thinkin bout... nth i could think of now... dunno who replace me today... actually i also dun care... lol~ tomolo workin day to nite... used to it le... i think i hurt my ankle... not sprain la... but sometimes walk halfway will hav a slight pain... dunno y... guess is tat time i slip n hit the bar... always havin injuries durin work... not one time i'm free frm injurin myself de... glass cut, burn, scald, slip & fell, hit my head, bruises & stuff... everythin also got xperience before in pizzahut... only work can make me put aside all unhappy things... hope tomolo will be a start of a brand new fine day ba =) i guess i dun wanna get into a relationship tat fast yet... dunno y... not mentally prepared yet... haiz~ god bless me...
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

today went out with wilson the whole day... had a great time... but eventually sad things still happen... maybe i really dun understan him well enough... i always misunderstans him... yet he still can tolerate... i really dunno y... & i really dunno y got ppl will like me... maybe they r blind... haiz~ y always hav so many misunderstandins sia... make my life miserable only... but i hate to c ppl sad cos of me... i dun wanna be the cause... i wanna be the one to be there for them when they sad... but y can't i always do it... as a sister, as a daughter, as a fren or maybe even as a gf... i always wanna be the one whom ppl can count on... but jus can't seem to do it... wat actually happen to me... it's like all i care bout is myself... y sia... really hate myself this time... i make a big mistake... really big... feel like hittin my head again... argh! sry... really very sry... ='(

i tend to c the ugly side of ppl... selfishness, sarcastism & the heart of darkness... y u always seem to think the side where the truth is not there... it's like u always misunderstans us but dun seem to wanna sort things out... y u wanna make ur life miserable... i can continue this y thingy for the whole next few min... y u dun trust us... y? dun u treat us as ur frens... we care but u dun seems to trust us... i hate it this way... no sense of trust... i hate ppl who dun trust me when i tend to trust them... selfishness... every single ppl die also hav a tiny tinge of selfishness... there's always things tat u dun wanna share with ppl... but pls... y u wanna act as if u own the whole world... there's always this sayin... u rather share ur things with ur frens rather than keepin it to urself... as tat will make u feel more happy... but y u wanna do this to urself... i jus dun get it... i was still intendin to lend it frm u... i can tell u sth really true rite now... here... i will be really unhappy & upset if u reject to lend me even when i asked nicely... i surely will... cos my fren dun trust me... y? y distrust someone who trust u... y can't u jus put trust on me... i dun admit i'm not trustworthy... cos i dun think i m... sarcastism... i freakin hate this part of the ugly side of ppl... wtf man... dun think u all very great... really hate ppl who r sarcastic... if u wan ur life to turn miserable... i got nth more to say... but pls dun use ur sarcastic words & phrases to hurt someone... u may seem to be jokin... but inside the person's heart... it hurts... it hurts more like knife piercin thru his/her heart when the person who's bein sarcastic is their own fren... the one they trust & cared for... i can jus say sth... i m startin to giv up on u... so do sth to save our frenship... maybe u think tat our frenship is nth but it's really sad tat i learnt tat u said i dun care bout frenship... i only can say this... when i needed someone... r u there for me? r u always there for me even if there's no trouble & stuff... frens r forever... but frenship can be broken ezily... it's how u maintain & recover it... i cnt do this alone... there's always a need for 2 hands to clap rite? there's alot u need to change... if u wan me to name them all... i can... u always think tat there's noone carin bout u & there for u... but think for urself... we may not always be there for u... but we always care for u... tat's wat frens r for... y say such things to hurt us... y say things to doubt us... y say things to make ur life miserable... y say things to make ppl dislike u... y say things to discourage & look down on urself... we r always willin to help u... but u jus dun giv us a chance... there's no such things as u can do everythin urself nicely... if not... wat r frens for... frens r not jus a name... pls do as u say... there's no point sayin sth without doin it out... i cnt c the point to it... haiz~ this is all i can say rite now... dun always say y i n carol become so close suddenly... ask urself... hope u know who i'm tokin bout...
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

thanks to yonghao sendin me hm again... lol~ liew~ wilson hor~ always last min then tell me wan go out de lei... n i always already hav plans liao lo... geez! always tryin to make me rack my brain... i already tried my best to find replacement le lo... but jus noone... haiz~ then jus tok to yeanmeng awhile on phone... actually i also not concentratin on wat he said... lol! tat's y force him go slp cos ltr got sch... i really m very angry with durai today lo... freak him man! i m goin to shout at him tomolo... geez! i already very gd work for him for 5 days le lo... take wed & sun leave only... then he at clever put wed workin... freak him! then he ask me to work a.m. shift since i already holiday... i say ok... & since i already a.m. crew Y STILL PUT ME WORK IN THE EVENIN!!! freak him! on sat i told him monday & the rest of the days i work 12-closin.. nvm if he put 12-9... but he last change my workin time frm 5-10.30 without me knowin lo... & today i still went to report for work at 12 lo... freak him! i shout like dunno wat in the office lo... lucky dave nv ask me go hm ltr then come back... if not i sure not gonna come back down again lo... waste time... & lucky durai nv work today... if not i'm gonna shout into his ears until he went deaf i also dun care... wtf man! tryin to act clever... if since u wanna plan our schedule for us... why the f u still ask us to giv u schedule... i may be softhearte & kind enough to help u work when u asked lo... but pls dun get beyond the limit lo... i also hav my own patience & temper... dun make me one day xplode... i won slap or use any signs of violence... but i sure know how to scream & shout at u de lo... wil keep askin me not to work tomolo... liew~ i cnt be so irresponsible to skip work without even findin a replacement de... haiz~ many ppl goin to quit le... but i only can be sure of one thing... i'm not plannin to quit yet... still not yet think until there... i dun mind they quit... but jus dun regret ur own decision... tat's wat i can tell them... today whole day do cashier... not really tired lo i can say... raguh came back awhile today =) darren who will be workin at marina & trainin her for a wk or so is quite nice la... very active as in willin to do wat we asked him to do without complainin... cashier is quite fun actually lo... jus tat need to take so much time countin money... liew eh~ many ppl may say tat durai actually quite dote me... but no lo... is c his mood de... even uncle peter also say he changed alot lo... wtf is happenin to him sia... i dun wanna quit, reasons is 1. i dun really bear to leave cos i hav so much fun here 2. every job is the same de eithere is manager gd staff not gd or the other way round... 3. i haven found a beta job 4. jus not prepared to leave 5. i dun find any gd reasons to convince myself to leave... tat's my reasons... actually i think everyone treats me quite gd lo... i dun feel left out or bein ill-treated or stuff... it's jus how u handle things... honestly cos i kindof done my part properly so as not to let any managers find fault to scold me... tat's y u all think mangaers din really scold me cos they kindof dote me... tat's wat i think la... found replacement le... naomi help me... guess i need to giv up on the wed leave le lo... geez! tomolo gonna call store... haiz~ thanks naomi... will repay ur kindness some other time de... lol~ at least yonghao tomolo can early go hm rest rather than sendin me hm... lol~ gonna slp soon le... not tired but still need to slp lol~
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =Believe in urself!=

Monday, October 24, 2005

woke up at 11 plus today... head pain pain de, blur blur de... still achin till now lo... haiz~ then went to wilson's hse to giv him the geo bk... then stay to tok til 3plus... his younger bro really cute sia lol~ then 4plus go out with yonghao... go bedok interchange hav my breakfast + lunch... then walk awhile then went to cosway walk walk till decide to watch movie... lol 'The Wig'... geez! actually alrite la... not very scary... then after movie he send me hm lo... lol! but my head still achin like dunno wat for the whole day... stupid boxes... stupid durai...
somethings r meant to be cherished before u lose them...
so rmb mus cherish watever u hav now =)
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smilez always!=

Sunday, October 23, 2005

WTF MAN!!! my head really hurts lo... geez! whole parcel of the 100 boxes fell directly on my head lo... fuk man! won cry is fake de lo... still pain till now lo... bit blur blur then headache... dad say if tomolo still pain then mus mus tell him... haiz~ today i very gd le lo... stupid durai... everything cnt... still say cnt bring hm pizza... freak him la... then wat he wan us to do... swallow the whole pizza down ah... geez! yeanmeng not happy for awhile jus now... but alrite le la.. at least still got smile =) kaiwei today also not bad la... not as bad as they think he is... today he very hardworkin lo... lol! i also know many ppl work for fun... i also la... half for fun half for allowance... then when break time... leslie say can bring outside in to eat de lo... for our break time la... then the STUPID DURAI! again him! say cnt... freak la... then end up me, naomi & joan hav to go to the exit to istana park de staircase there sit & eat... geez! funny thing is a guy & his fren walk pass... then guy saw me sittin eattin... then i very malu turn to face the wall... then he said very loudly 'i gonna sue pizza hut for torturin their staff... even social workers also hav the rights to blablabla~' lol~ i there wanna laugh dun wanna laugh... my head like this durai still dare to laugh... not funny at all lo! can hav some heart not... geez! tomolo not workin... thank god!
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smilez always!=

Saturday, October 22, 2005

thanks to yonghao again... lol~ my private chauffer =) feel bad tat he so tired n i still ask him send me hm... hmmm yeanmeng is crazy... i think he too much money to spare... he ask his frens down to P.S. to watch midnite movie... &... his frens came down by taxi... &... the taxi fare is yeanmeng pay -_-" &... late midnite movie fee is very~ x lo... lol! rich boi now hor... tok bout money... geez! i was doin bar & cashier for the whole day... &... geez! jus now got one crazy customer who's tryin to show off his dumb money... freak him! he's really nuts! he ask me wan bigger notes not... then i c the drawer... no $50... then i say ok... then he said $1000 can? GEEZ! tryin to be funny... then i said no... then kelvin say 'anyhow say la'.. lol~ then i down there keep on smilin... then the customer ask 'y?... u wan $10000 i also got...' then he take out tat $10000 note... really show off man... then i tot scarly kena rob then he know... haha~ today quite ok la... tired is tired... but not tat tired...
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smilez always=

Friday, October 21, 2005

jus finish tokin on phone with yeanmeng... he's really bored to tears liao man... but i still cnt kick the habit of 'dun like tokin on phone' even when got topic to tok bout i also kindof quiet lol~ actually come back hm very tired de lo... cos work full day 12-closin... liew~ but come hm rmb need to call yeanmeng... then frm tired become not tired... frm 12 til marcus came in i was doin cashier & bar... then actually i wash my hands off tat section le lo... but the marcus so slow... geez! & the prob is he dunno hwo to close bar... liew~ if i din help him, he sure gonna go hm real late de... still close bar myself nia... he should thank me a million times lol~ tomolo also workin til nite... sure till closin again de... startin work also doin cashier & bar... lol! funny amjad... keep wantin me to do cashier & bar... then naomi wan do also cnt... dunno y hongwei & cheexian will come pizzahut here... lol~ still say wan wait for me to go hm together... at long last i still manage to ask them go hm themselves... dun wanna get disiao by them durin the journey back to their destination... then thanks to yonghao again for sendin me hm... =) he can be my private chauffer liao la... haha! rol gan today crazy i think lol~ ask me tomolo wanna hav dinner together not... haha~ too bad i work till late at nite... & she knows if i work till 9 is confirm work till closin de... lol~ by tat time is already counted as supper rather than dinner... i think sunday i goin to meet wilson ba... he wanna lend geo bk frm me to study lol~ ok la... cos he also helped me alot when i havin xams... y ppl keep askin wat i goin to do after take results... liew! how i possibly know... i dun even know my results... i dun even know if i can pass... everythin also dunno how to ans u all lol! funny ppl... today i do cashier i still help them earn excess $2 plus lo... c i so gd... lol~ dunno ltr should wear specs or contact lens go work... lol~ still thinkin =D
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smilez always!=

Thursday, October 20, 2005

today went out with rol gan, samantha & shiehien... =) haiz~ my wire today bit sot sot one... ezily then angry liao... sian~ nth to blog today actually... oh ya thanks zan for her present ytd =) really like it =D tomolo workin day again... sian sian one... haiz~ sry zhaoyang... sry for today... dunno wat happen to me... today saw SEBASTIAN & WILLIAM FRM PROJECT SUPERSTAR DE... at orchard sia! liew... both of them got look at my direction woo hoo~ but sebastian GOT STEAD LE... LIEW... MY SEBASTIAN~ *SOBZ!*
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smilez always=

ytd actuall work til 6 only de... but extend till closin... TIRED like hell... whole day kena disiao til very jialet... really blushin till siao... but in the end i still rejected him... haiz~ sry la... but it's like there's really no choice... really... so i will only treat the present as a birthday gift =) thanks... & ppl... dun blame me for tat... cos i really cnt force myself go like person i dun like... haiz~ then after work yonghao took me to newton circus... liew~ first time in my life i went there =D he call me country bumpkin... lol~ then when reach hm le... wilson called me to talk... haiz~ no peace again... talk for around 1 hr... really very tired already sia... then i haven even take down my contact lens... geez! after i put down the phone i jus fall aslp on the sofa... with the contact lens on! lol~ but i woke up at around 4 plus in the mornin to change down my lenses & get to bed... today 11 plus then wake up... mum call then wake up... if not dunno will slp till wat time... ltr gonna call wil to c if he really wanna go out not... he this 'last min cancel' king... geez! actually goin out with rol gan one lo... aiya! mafan gui!
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =smile always!=

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

went out with carol, naomi, shuzhen & samantha today =D went to eat 'The Ship' for breakfast + lunch + dinner... all in one lol~ then went to walk walk... geez! legs breakin man... tired like hell haha! bot a comic =) quite nice de... at first went to bishan J8 to walk awhile then take neoprint... samantha go hm first le... then shuzhen... then left me, carol & naomi went back orchard walk again... lol~ then walk all the way to P.S. dunno go there for wat also... but i promise yeanmeng go c him mah ^-^ he very poorthing one haha~ then heard umjad's shift today so went in sit down since also gonna closin liao lol~ umjad's goin to transfer to marina square -_-" liew eh~ headache! will miss him sia... haiz haiz~ we three sat down to drink mango fiz... huizhen, steph & her bf sat at another place eatin pizza... lol~ i won wanna eat urs la!!! i eat before lol~ no need worry lol! tomolo got work geez! jus now took photo with zul... lol! make stupid face... zan die also gonna take money frm naomi tomolo... liew eh~ naomi really takin pay on sat la... geez! believe her can not... she won run away with the money la... u also still owe me $3.50... naomi so gd still say will try to fork out the $22 by tomolo to giv u... rol gan & samantha hav to follow her tomolo to P.S. also haiz! they gonna make cheesecake tomolo lol~ i found tat yeanmeng is startin to get very noisy~ since he broke up with his gf... liew~ isit his gf forbid him frm makin noise?!?! haha~ actually like very bad to reject marcus for his offer to watch movie... but... aiya... jus sry la... *deep sigh* headache ah really headache ah... lol~ 12a.m. le... birthday over =) Thanks for all pals for wishin me happy birthday today by sms: kaixiong, yongshu, celestine, koonloong, raymond & xiaofen!!! by handshake:huizhen & lyana! by hugz: samantha, carol & samantha! by frenster: richard, weiwen, danny, maggie, yongchie, shujun, meihong, samantha & shibiao! thanks!
(^_<)\/ smilez~ always!

Monday, October 17, 2005

OH YA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEL FRM 403, VINCENT FRM FRENSTER DE BUDDY, EMINEM LOL~ JAISHREE'S FAV & YONGCHIE'S MUM! IT'S GREAT TO SHARE THE SAME BIRTHDAY =D

YAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! WOOHOO~ OFFICIALLY SIXTEEN LIAO! WHO WAN BUY GIORDANO THINGS CAN COME FIND ME =D YAY! HAHA NC 16 SHOWS HERE I COME =p THANKING ZHAOYANG, MARCUS, YEAN MENG, WILSON, HUIYI, YONGCHIE, MELVIN, CAROL, WEIWEN & WEIJIE FOR WISHIN ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AT 12A.M, 17 OCT '05!! THANK U PALS VERY MUCH!

found this pic on net jus now =D suitable for me today =)

liew eh~ dun make me work tomolo lei~ i already very poorthing le... still need to work tomolo!!! goin to cry liao la... faster someone ask me out lei... liew~ really feel tat tomolo's not a gd birthday *sobzsobz* not sweet sixteen ah... is bitter sixteen... gonna sing birthday song to myself tomolo ='( thanks zan to be the first person to wish me happy birthday in sms... =D muackz luv ya gerl! sobz* but i still very sad... haiz~

been rottin at hm for the whole day!!! ahhh~ bored till goin crazy le!!! geez! boredom rulz my birthday eve ='( haiz~ tues workin tomolo maybe goin out... on & off my pc for 4 times today... noone to chat with, geez! waaaa~ hope tomolo will be a beta day... liew~ if not very poorthing sia... if no go out with frens i think i also need to go out alone... lol~ i dun mind sia... jus now went out for dinner with my family =) then now at hm facin this squarish pc screen... really gonna bored to death man... noone to tok to!!! *sobzsobz* not feelin quite well now... haiz~ today's dawn's birthday =) Happy Birthday to her~
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:1 more day=

Sunday, October 16, 2005

firstly, thanks for all those pals who attended my bbq! THANK YOU ALL ALOT~ woke up at 11 plus when rol gan called... lol~ then went to yonghao's hse watch dvd... lol~ Initial D rox... so~ nice! if i nv watch 'Shen Hua' then need to watch dvd again... haha~ next time watch 'San ge Hao ren' =D then he sent me to rol gan's hse... on the way saw dominic & delton... lucky they nv saw me =p... rol gan at tat time like dyin like this... lol~ after awhile koonloong & boonchuen came in ah loong's dad's car... then went to tao payoh to take cake... after tat went to cheexian's hse take thing... stay there watch tv awhile... then round 6 slowly walk to bbq pit there... lol~ usual thing for bbq... then at nite almost everyone go hm le... xcept stpeh, naomi, zhiwei, darren, xiaofen, shujun, shuzhen, koonloong, cheexian, gabriel, carol & me stay to play cards.. play halfway the lights went off... lol! 11p.m. liao... i today luck quite gd... lol~ win bit of money =D actually wan to ask ah hao send me hm de... but he tired then dun wan mafan him... so decided to go hm myself... liew~ i really pei fu them sia... ice cream cake also can play... lol~ but me, shuzhen & steph most guai one... stand there eat... lol~ keep sayin dun waste haha~ many thanks to danny, boonchuen, cheexian, koonloong, shuzhen, rol gan's ahma for all ur gifts =)... really very nice & sweet of ahma for her 6 red eggs =D really appreciate all of wat u all giv *wink! xcited tat i finally goin to be 16 liao wahahaha~! waitin for this day wait very long liao... next mus wait till 18 yrs old... then 21 haha~tirin day GeeZ!!! haha~
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:1 more day=

finally finish this wk's work le =D liew eh~ jus now actually 9 i should be off work le lo... i stay till 11 plus then finish everythin sia... the glasses stack till like one big mountain... c le also will wanna cry ah... lol~ tired lo work 12pm-11plus... total 10 hrs... only get to sit down for awhile durin break time lo... geez! lucky got the new manager Dave help me... haha! i very bad sia... all the while like orderin him help me do thing =p... think i quite get used to contact lens le... hehe~ cool~ today recieved 3 gifts... 1st is frm yeanmeng & kenny de 2nd is frm lyana, irna, adrina, naomi, kenny, celestine, peter & yeanmeng 3rd is frm yonghao! thanks pals!!! really very surprised tat u all will giv me present... n yeanmeng funny lo... still try to be secretive... lol~ really very tired today man... tomolo's also another bz day... lol~ waliew~ they r gonna drive me mad man... ahhhh! dun say again la... keep on disiaoin me... wat marcus wat wat wat de... liew eh! stop it hor... mus be cos i gonna birthday u all come & disiao me de... mus be
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:2 more days=

Friday, October 14, 2005

jus now chat with yonghao... chat alot la... really very touched... ppl r jus stubborn beings... will nv learn unless they really get into the situation & xperienced it... tat's y i also need to jiayou... hard work does pays off... need to know when it's time to play & be serious... know the consequences & try not to repeat mistakes... everything we do is to depend on ourselves... nth will help u unless u help urself first... recently i keep tellin ppl sth... 'nobody would giv up on u unless u giv up on urself first...' '... there's always hope unless u hav already given up... tat's when it's really hopeless...' dun ever think tat noone in the world luvs u... it's jus wat u think... but actually there's alot of ppl out there, truly luvs u... Believe urself & u will eventually get wat u wishes for most! *wink!

went to P.S. to fix my specs again... lol~ i guess the uncle sure c me till sian =p after tat went to pizza hut to hav breakfast plus lunch... wear contact lens whole day... at first very uncomfy... like c double vision... but uncle say is cos not used to it & eyes dry... he wan me to get used to it for one wk first... =) then went back to amk to buy bbq stuff... with koonloong, samantha, hongwei, carol & boonchuen... they jus cnt stop disiaoing me & him de lei... waliao~ after buyin the stuff... went to cheexian's hse to put the things =p... like makin use of his hse like this... then stay at his hse till 8plus, watchin tv... his hse very coolin sia... so windy... lol~ hongwei & samantha went to tuition... then the rest of us went to ah xian's hse lo... ah xian poorthing... ppl eat proper meals... he only can eat porridge... but at least beta... still got fish inside... lol~ then when boonchuen & cheexian say maybe not comin to my bbq... i pretend to cry... lol~ koonloong clever... know i jus kiddin only... boonchuen silly go believe i really cryin then he say okok i go i go... haha! he's simply cute ^-^ when i wanna go hm already... rol gan smsin... then she ask how to spell stingray... haha! HAHA! guess how she spell... S.T.I.N.K.R.A.Y!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA~!!! can u believe it?!?! waliao~ i laugh till kneel on the floor... laugh till my tears all flow down frm my eyes... geez! rol gan!!! go learn ur spellin now... so funny... haha~ but i like to c boonchuen smile & laugh... so cute... haha~ he rarely laugh cos of his cool behaviour... stupid rol... still put out m*i*i*g's pic to provoke me... geez! lol~ surprised tat yean meng sms me ask me monday got work not... ask can come out not... lol~ dunno how he knew my birthday... maybe cos of frenster's alert ba haha~ so gd of him lol~ tomolo workin... frm 12-9... waaa! haiz~ now peter also know bout my birthday... mus be yonghao la... geez! then the wierd thing is... how the kitchen boi know my blog??? lol! funny~ nvm la... hope tomolo is a gd fine day... -_-"
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:4 more days=

samantha, rol gan & lyn lok

sweet, rol gan & me

the siaokia grp

Thursday, October 13, 2005

tirin day... but~ i got my white specs + contact lens... spent so much time on learnin how to put on & take out the contact lens... lol~ guess the optician also teach till vomit blood =p... will post the pics of me wearin my new specs next time de =) YAY! today my dearest cousin brother's birthday... happy for him ^-^ sendin him a birthday card =D my shoulders achin geez!!! carol dye back her hair liao... haha part of her pinkish hair gone =p her mum angry with her haha~ this mornin tok to jun for hrs til 3plus a.m. in msn... chattin bout many things... =) so happy tat i get to chat with her... glad tat at least we hav sth to tok bout ^-^ i jus wanna let any of my pals know tat... if u hav anythin to clarify anythin bout me... or hav sth to say bout me... if it's possible... y not come forward n tell me bout it =) i'll be glad to share ur views... but pls... do not tok bout me behind my back... cos i will know eventually... so it's beta to voice out than to discuss it without me knowin k? thanks! =D
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:5 more days=

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

first day of work made alot of mistakes... lol~ sian~ tomolo also workin... haiz~ legs wobbly... gonna break soon... ='( steph & huizhen not comin to my bbq... sad =( naomi not sure... haiz~ sighsighsigh!... nvm la =) they got their own things de mah ^-^ anyway today got 2 new kitchen crew... at first i c them i tot they gays =p not i bad but really... then cnt stop smilin to myself... the new manager's nice actually... =) she's actually tryin to be frenly tat's all... then new service crew celestine, adrina's fren... look kind of sweet... carol gave me another present shared with samantha, thanks gals! luv it ^-^ 2nd present received already... cool... both is carol + another person share de... 3rd is mum giv de =D then after work went to hospital again to c cheexian... this time is he got his operation already... c him so weak... so poorthing! wan laugh dun wan laugh like tat haiz~ poor xian... then after tat along the way they wan go eat... i wan go hm they die also wan drag me along... geez! then keep on di siao me bout boonchuen... make me blush until dunno like wat... i blush till i feel my ears also hot hot one... geez! first time lo... they gd lo... always di siao me only... gonna get my specs + contact lens tomolo le =D few more minutes is boss aka jason & my dearest cousin bro richard's birthday! yay!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM!!! *DINGDONGDINGDONG* 12 a.m. already 12 oct weet!
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

rottin at hm today, the whole~ day! geez! so sian... get to take a noon nap lol~ then eat whole day... haha! find wat eat wat... then now dinner no appetite... hmmm tomolo is the first day of many wks i start workin again... =) god bless me... hope the new managers aren't so diff to get along with... if not more stress... new crews also... dunno wat they r like... lol~ i find lina bit wierd wierd one... lol! naomi worse... say she like bit mental prob... bad sia lol~ dunno should go dye hair not... lol fringe only... but like waste money lei... lol... c the outcome of rol gan's hair first la... haha! my bro found out bout the bbq thingy... he saw my check list & all tat... lol~ asked if i still havin the bbq here not... then i xplained say hav it in amk... lol~ maybe bringin him along without mum's notice =p told him not to tell... he say c first = maybe going c got appointment not =D cool! then can hav more fun... tomolo maybe goin to c cheexian again... lol~ admitted into hospital again... xian ah~ can grow strong not... lol~ so tall so big build but yet so weak... haiz~ but boonchuen's goin tomolo! haha~ yay! shiok man... lol~ got chance tok to him again =) thanks rol gan haha~ for givin me the chance... waliao... meiying...! argh! angry* lol~ no la... jus admire him only... =D nth more after work then go tan tock seng again... no aircon de hospital... waaa! tomolo cnt wear tat long pants go... sure sweat! lol...
today's qoutes:
*Just take my hand, hold it tight, I will protect you from all around you...*
*Smile but once and the world will smile back*
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me & grace =D sis for life

me, grace & rol gan

me, rol gan & zan

Monday, October 10, 2005

today went out with mum... yay! goin to get new specs already! white frames haha! plus going to get contact lens also... try out only... =) finally... thanks mum... birthday present frm her... haha~ she say de... hmmm gonna get sth frm dad also =D then bot new slippers... alrite la... hmmm today bit sian sian one... but able to go out so not tat sian oct many birthday boys n gers... cool! one of them is me... ^-^ mus everyday happy so tat my life will be spent meaningfully =) so long nv watch movie... haiz~ i still wanna watch shen hua... but no money ='( sad... haha~ still yet to giv the money to ang... i mean mr ang... hmmm~ carol goin to dye hair tomolo... kaoz... still need to go all the way frm woodlands to amk... argh! startin work on tues... misses work =D need to earn back all the money i've spent... JIAYOU! oh ya... to all those who r goin to hav o lvls & normal xams, GD LUCK TO U PALS!!! study hard k?!?! *WinK*
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Sunday, October 09, 2005

tonite is a cold~ nite... lol~ played till now then come hm... thanks to jason aka yonghao! haha~ he tompang me hm de =) save taxi fare... so long nv ride bike liao... geez! at first scary... then cold... damn cold lo... even he himself can feel tat i'm shiverin... lol~ dun misunderstan sia... i din hold onto him la... i hold onto the side of the bike la... lucky he very sensible sia... nv speed... haha i ride till legs numb... wobbly already... my mum din know i ride bike hm... she tot i take my fren's dad's car hm =p which is naomi who helped me with the lie... sry mum... today nv go where & play la... is go pizza hut & celebrate farewell party for raguh =D gdbye raguh & gd luck to u in ur new environment... =) played truth or dare... everyone uses dare... haha... i kena then they ask me go kiss irna... lol... lucky is another siaokia also... haha i go straight & kiss without even hesitatin... kiss on cheek still got the loud peck lo... haha~ lucky i also siaosiao one =p actually ride bike also not tat scary la... anyway really mus thank zhaoyang, naomi, carol, shuzhen & jason alot for helpin me so much today =)
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Saturday, October 08, 2005

waliao eh... happy for nth... geez! u r the person who sms me suddenly n ask if wanna go watch movie tomolo not... then ltr u r the one also to say tat maybe not meetin... not sure... freak u la! if u so unsure then dun ask me in the first place... wan go out with ur frens jus do so... dun ask liao then ltr not confirm goin out or not... lucky not confirm liao then last min when i reachin there u say not meetin... i'm gonna slap u when i c u if tat's the case... tomolo too many appointments... but i can cancel one of my appointments to go out with u... if not goin out also nvm... then i go out with rol gan & shuzhen lo... jus now went to tan tock seng hospital to visit cheexian... ya... he's admitted to hospital on 6 oct... sway ah he... cnt retake sci paper & gotta take maths paper in hospital... then before tat... rol gan & shujun went to red point highlite hair... i also feel like dyin my fringe... my mum dun allow... everythin dun allow... waliao eh~ no more xams liao... woohoo! bit happy la... cnt totally happy... cos of this dumb incident + i not sure wat my results will be... tomolo gonna go store at nite... to celebrate raguh's farewell party... 10 nov still need to go back to sch for art... then monday i also think i goin back to sch to giv mr ang the physics money... not all ppl pay up lo... freak... next time they got retribution one... lol~ mr ang kind until very poorthing lo... haiz~ this ppl mus be purposely dun wan pay up tat's y say forget bring money... how bout forget to bring urself to sch then... geez! lame xcuses... today is not a gd day for me... & tan tock seng no hav air con... very humid there sia... haiz~ my art actually quite happy with my outcome... but my best part been covered up by the dumb sticker... aiya... there is the nicest & the part i like most lo... haiz if tomolo not goin out with him i also hav nth to say... jus knew it already... his pattern... haiz~ forget it la... yi chang huan xi yi chang kong... dun wish to rmb sad things... make my life miserable only geez!
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:10 more days=

Friday, October 07, 2005

haiz... can burn my bio & phy books & worksheets liao... lol! i really dunno a single thing in bio... the first ques in paper2 i do le... then the rest i one thing also dun understan... again is confirm U grade for both combined sub... jus like wat's in my report book... haiz~ i really will cry hard if i get 11 points man... damn heartbreakin & very bu gan xin if i get an xtra point... hope my xiao cong ming also come back to me lei... haiz~ tomolo maths paper 2 & art... woo hoo~ others all r happy tat tomolo's finally here... but i'm definitely not... geez! i haven finish my art... i dunno wat grade i'm gonna get again... i'm really hopeless, lousy & no use... *great SIGH* phy paper was alrite... dun dare say ez... to me it's alrite only... cos i'm not smart tat i know every ques... decided to organise bbq in amk... secretly... =p dun mean to de... but my mum jus dun allow... & i jus wanna hav fun after xams... at least make me happy for awhile on my birthday... cos i know i would be able to do well... freak tong aik la... always come & provoke me... say wat dun die... still got simei... u nv say anythin i won assume u r mute... lol~ marcus is very wet blanket... NO! should say raguh... liew~ tomolo was the last day of my papers & he called to tell me this... 'raguh ask if u can work tomolo nite not... cos not enough ppl...' liew~ i haven started playin & worse... i haven finish my last paper... then he call & tell me this... geez! always first to come find me de... i know i'm over kindhearted... but not always i will help de mah... sry to disappoint u all la... haiz~ i really dun wan go ite... nonononono! ahh!!! by the way... AMY KIA's birthday's today! HappY BirthdaY to her! yay!
there's a phrase which i find tat it's very meaningful... qouted frm 'Starway to Heaven'
*sometimes frenship is beta than luv... lovers may part but frens r forever!*
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:12 more days=

Thursday, October 06, 2005

haven think of how to draw yet... lol~ watchin tv now... ltr goin to buy cake for steph... she's really pig sia... eat so big cake... haha~ haiz~ miss him man... dunno y... but i confirm he won think of me de... haha~ silly me thou... dad come hm le... geez! sian man... disappointed tat he din even msg me to giv me some encouragement to my xams... but nvm la... maybe he's tryin hard to forget me as soon as possible... haha~ hmmm... hope he not bad till forget my birthday... if tat's the case then i know y & wat to do le =) smilez! mus cheer up haha~ turnin 16 le... cnt be so childish liao... mus change for the beta le... all the best to myself! ( ^_<)\/

carol & cherlyn

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROL GAN! she's finally 16 but she definitely dun look like the age of 16 wahahaha! today is 5th of oct... & i've yet to draw anythin on my block... wat m i thinkin?!?! poor rol gan... birthday still got tuition... haha~ lucky mine falls on monday & no more sch n xams on tat day! =D haiz~ my art... need to do sth by today... today after remedial went to S11 eat ramen again... this time with steph, huizhen & zhiwei... after tat went to play bowlin... guess where... went all the way to KOVAN & play... 3 of us act clever... dunno how to play still act smart, in the end 8 bowls out of 10 go gutter... lol zhiwei say pay money throw into drain haha! long time no play tat's y hand itchy... zhiwei pro man... dunno how to play but get most strikes is him... geez! tiko one... mus be! lol~ tomolo phy + bio = combined sci xam... i sure fail again... i hav yet to pass combined sci since last yr... confirm won pass for N lvls... no hope le la... i still tell mr ang tat if next yr i cnt come back i will come back visit him... lol~ tong aik still dare to laugh at me... but at least... really... i've done my best le ah... haiz... sian la...
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:13 more days=

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

geez... dunno if can pass not... noone can ask me bout eng... i know nth... & i dun wanna say anythin... haiz~ geo i giv up le... lol... study half way then talk rubbish with koonloong... cos i think i predict tat my ss also will fail badly... so no point work so hard... but at least i tried to do all the ques... i really tried my best lo... so noone can scold me for this... wahahaha~ maths paper 1 ah... alrite la... dun dare to say it's ez... but i know tat some ppl will get full marks for this... me ah... no comments... dunno isit my mum get influenced by all those MIA children's news... keep on worryin tat i will run away frm hm... geez! pls la... i'm not so stupid to leave hm... i hav a comfy bed, temptin pc & tv... nice messy rm... y will i leave sia... i'm a happy-go-lucky person... forget everythin after a while... so dun worry... lol~ after geo... went to eat at S11 with xiaofen... lol~ then mum called & ask me wat i wan for my bd present... funny man~ suddenly so gd ask me... then say wat dun cos angry & not happy then run away frm hm... i won la! quit askin me repeated ques so many times... lol~ funny man my mum... now watchin heartlanders... lucky bro remind me if not i forget... ltr shootin stars... sian man... not olinda's story le... art not yet done... dunno wat to draw... combine sci on thurs... paper 2 maths on fri art also... tomolo rol gan's birthday... tomolo also need to go sch for remedial... but which sub should i go i also dunno... both clash... phy & maths haha! after this wk... damn free liao man... maybe sun go make new specs with mum... =) goin to be 16 le... sweet sixteen to me after 2 wks ltr =D can watch nc16 shows after tat le wahahaha! my biggest birthday wish... get to sec5... noone can fufil it for me xcept myself ^-^
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown:14 more days=

Sunday, October 02, 2005

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! watchin powerpuffgerls movie now~ wahahaha! nice movie man... ytd was early celebration of carol gan's birthday... there goes my $55.20 cake *sobzsobz* sad man... lol~ fun la... but too bad most of the others not here... or else maybe more fun hmmm~ thanks to raymond for his digicam! din xpect him to lend me his digicam willingly... but of cos he did worry bout it la... keep askin me to take gd care of his cam lol~ thanks for burnin the pics into the cd also =) really grateful... will keep my promise to treat u to lunch de =D hongwei was damn crazy ytd... geez~ keep di siaoin me... actually rol's birthday on this comin wed 5 oct... lol~ not yet buy her present =) maybe take a pic of wat i bot for her next time =) usual play... take cream use as facial foam... haha! play till whole face also got... hair & clothes also kena geez... lol~ then went to marina bay's the pitch dark park with no lites on at all take pics... loads of them lol~ then today suppose to go book bbq pit de... RC not open on wkends... freak! lol... need to wait till on monday nite haiz~ then went to orchard return raymon his cam... lol~ first time see him act like kid... readin archie comics & was so engrossed in it... =) nvm la... look like last time de me... then went around orchard take free icecream & drinks frm chun san... thanks man! then wait for sweet... hav lunch & took neoprint in far east... let u all c the neoprint next time... sweet is so fun lovin & outgoin =D gd gd! then went back to amk to take all my stuff frm grace hse... then wetn to meet raymon again to take the cd... geez... he's really fast in doin things lol! thanks again ^-^ then talk awhile before i go hm lol~ my gai gai slipper goin to spoil le... ='( need to buy new one again... haiz~ monday xams le... ahhh!!! stress ah! wat to do... kaoz... i cnt fail i cnt fail i cnt fail!!! i jus can't... i dun wanna disappoint anyone... need to finish my art jus in time... tomolo gonna go out again... this time is go study la... early in the mornin... sad ah... haiz~ my birthday comin le... bit happy la... lol~ c who is the gd souls who rmb my birthday... haha~ now then i know my dear cousin brother's birthday is on oct 12... geez! sry bro! for my whole 16 yrs of life i now then know lol~ will write u testi when ur birthday comes de =D if some gd souls fufils my wishlist... i'll be really grateful for the rest of my life haha~
( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =countdown=17 more days=

me & my kitty haha~ is grace's kitty

the $55.20 cake, nv bluff... really got carol's pic on it haha!

the grp with the cake =D

darren de niang niang ciang lol~

cheexian actin cute haha~

me & shuzhen gonna kiss rol gan

koonloong & me

hongwei de siaokia & me