my Life

Sunday, June 29, 2008

I'm really desperate to get my hands on a nice, cute hoodie!
Will we ever be fated to meet?!?!
LOL.

The whole day's a drag.
Viwawa's not fun anymore.
I suck in card games.
I suck badly in Big 2.
Wthell.

GSS is coming to an end.
Yet i still haven't bought anything.
Bloody hell.
When is my pay coming in???
Rawr~

If i could get whatever i want in life, wouldn't it be nice.
Hmmm.
So sian.

I haven't really been happy.
Who can make me smile lei??

I have a wierd dream this morning.
Haha!
Leon appeared in my dream.
Wthell.
I'm not telling you what he did.
*blush
HAHA.

I want to go around the world too!

I want to watch alot of movies!

My mind's set to have my hair permed =)

Labels: - to be loved

GOD!
Every word of profanities at the tip of my tongue.
Every vein of blood vessel threatening to burst.

I regretted that i showed up for work today.

But i'm glad that bell wasn't working.
I bet with my last $19 in my bank account that she'll be the first one to just walk out and not zhoulei instead.
Zhoulei's damn poorthing lo.
The whole place simply sucks man.
No better word to describe.

The system they came up with for tonight was totally useless, and didn't help lighten our work.
It just made us extra busy & twice the cock ups as before.

I felt abit useless la, to start breaking down first.
But after so many people broke down one after another, i knew something was wrong, and it wasn't just me.

After the whole thing was over, they just went off.
No gesture of appreciation.
Not even a simple thank you.
What the hell.
Are we your service staff?
or are we your slaves?

But well, I expected the cock ups for tonight.
Just didn't expect irritating people will be there to pretend they know-it-all.
Which the actual fact was, they know nothing, yet thinks that they knew everything.

How i wished that you'll be there to stop my tears.

Labels: - If i can be stronger

Saturday, June 28, 2008

So tired!

Went KBox today with Ivy, Sam and Sheralyn.
Always filled with fun, laughter & gossips with sam around =)

Sorry Serene!
I'll send a proper message to u next time.
LOL.
You damn cute lo.
Geez.

After 4 hrs of rooting our butts & staring at the screen with mics always in our hands, we finally made a move.

After all the fun, was work.
Damn sian.
Damn tired.
Haiz.

I'm so tempted not to turn up for tomorrow's shift.
Rawr!

I know you meant me well too.
But to forget you is impossible.
Just let me be there whenever you need someone eh?
I'm contented already.

You'll be fine someday soon =)

Labels: - Destined

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Didn't go clubbing.
Hmmm.
Decided to save the few bucks of cab fare to friday's KBox =D
YayYayYay~

So sian.
Woke up in the morning.
Listened to music.
Played ViWawa.
Then went out for dental.
And home again after that.

Argh!
When can i get my pay cheque!

Labels: - Take time to realise.

Quarrelled with bell yesterday.
WTHell.
I think it's damn stupid to quarrel because of HIM lo.
In the end, i realised my mistake & apologised.
And we're ok today =)
Back to our usual goofiness during work.

Hmmm i'm feeling abit lost.
I don't know what to do.
Felt kind of silly.

Sometimes i think.
Why should it always be him?
Well, all i can say is that, the right feeling is just there.

I fell too hard to pick myself up.

I came across a poem.

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.

Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say! 'I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him.'

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir,' 'Jim died today.'

And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.

Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Will you say what u mean?
Will you do as you promised?
Will you be able to express how you actually feel?

I teared yesterday watching the first 15 min of LeFemme.
The whole situation looked so much like what happened to me.
Haha.
Thought back.
I feel like laughing.
Silly me.

I don't pity myself.
But i felt useless.
Despite all the advices, i still decided to believe in what my heart tells me.

Well, we'll see how eh...
Maybe happiness' coming my way soon =)
Who knows.

Labels: - My wishful thinkings

Monday, June 23, 2008

Oh.
I didn't know you were reading.
Oops.
So sorry.
Well, say whatever you want la.
I'm still not affected.
Ha.
I think only i know who a person i am.
Got something against me?
Say it right in my face baby.

All is worth it!
$50 pay for 5 hrs of almost doing nothing, and another $50 just for tips.
My job was just top up beverage & serve them more.
LOL!

After work, still played PhotoHunt and sang K with ivy & sam =D
Damn fun.

If only there's always this kind of function.
Haha.

Before that, went to have sushi buffet with ivy, kim, sam, serene and sheralyn.
Gossips, lame jokes and whole day laughter.
Had fun with you girls.
Let's plan more outing eh?

Hugz!

Have the kick to work in a pub now.
Lol.
Like so fun.
But i know it won't be easy.
Well, let's see.

Labels: - Say it if you care

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Ahhhh~
It's raining this sunday.
AGAIN!!!
Rawr!
Next time i'm not going to plan to go Sentosa.
Lol.
You peeps plan & tell me, i'll just say ok, k??

Damn.

Haiz.
Never mind.
Changing our outing plan to SukiSushi!
LOL.
Cream puff!

Then work!
Then karaoke!
Weet!

I want to watch movie la!
Who want to accompany me??
Sad =(

Labels: - Seeking for Lost Love

It's a drag in the day time.
God.
Abit pissed.
But well, at least i still got to pass the night with 30bucks in my bank account.

Please don't torture me anymore.
I don't want to continue working like a slave =(

Anyway, it was kindof fun tonight =)
Ate Popeye for dinner.
Hmmm it was ok.
The fries are nice.
Then went up to take Singapore Flyers.
Was a whole new experience.
But it became a bore when 15 mins passed.
LOL.
Total time up there is 30 mins.

I made a wish when we got to the top.
And i hope it comes true =)
Cross my heart.

Labels: - Happy Birthday Meihong

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Lol!

Noone believed i can wake up on time for work this morning.

Well, i proved all of you wrong!

Haha!

Super tired out today.

This is one of the pictures i've taken & liked it alot.

If i said i've totally forgot about you, i'll be deceiving myself.
It's like there's no way i can get you out of my mind.
Haiz.
What to do.
He'll be happy with her soon.
And i'll just watch quietly & love him silently.
Maybe i'll find my own happiness soon.
But who knows.
May they be happy together.
Bless.

Labels: - If you were mine...

Friday, June 20, 2008

I won't feel guilty.
But bear more grudge eh...
You'll be more miserable than before.

My friend.
Let go of the unbearables.
And start a better beginning.
You'll be much happier.
I don't need you to trust me.
Just want you to be happy.
Be proud of who you are.
Believe me.
You'll be happier.

Labels: - I'm just an ordinary girl

OMG!
I think i had a drop too many.
But well, yeah!
I had fun, definitely.
Thanks guys.
For taking care of me.

I still prefer StJames.
DoubleO's songs' abit...
Haha~ you know.

Anyway...
I'll show u my masterpieces like i promised when i'm much more sober tomorrow.
Night people.

I hope i can wake up punctually tomorrow for work.

Labels: - How i wished it was him

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Yawn.
Just woke up from my nap.

Lol.
I know i'm being really boliao.
Haha.

Got to go.
Blog later.
Late already!
Ciaoz~ peeps.
Update my masterpieces & update u more on what i did today & tonight.
Hugz~

Labels: - Always be my baby

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I'm really challenging my endurance man...
Every bit of energy drained.
But still, i had fun =)
I'll have more fun if i had my own camera with me.
Aw shucks >=/

Woke up early & dragged myself out of the house to Little India.
Who says morning sunshine's not hot.
I'm perspiring every time i go under the sun.
Lucky i decided to dress myself in just tshirt & shorts with a pair of flip flops.
Haha! Doll up so pretty for what.

Well, i think i got some nice shots.
So happy.
Fruitful labour!

Lol mama and i were talking about the Tiger Beer commercial just now.
If we could wish for things & get them just like that, the first thing i would wish for is...
MONEY!
Second thing i would wish for is...
A nice, sweet, caring, humourous , fun, hot boyfriend!
Third wish will be...
3 more wishes!
Hee~
Yeah right!
Dream on!

Labels: - I want happiness

Never would i dare to sleep while riding on a bike as a pillion.
Lol.

I'm so beat.
Slept at 5am yesterday.
Then woke up at 9plus 10 to prepare for work.
Worked till 3 plus.
Met up with the girls in the evening.
And we're on the way to Sam's birthday party!

I declare that tonight will be the last night i'm standing in front of the bbq pit to barbecue.
I smelt like i slept with the chicken wings for one whole night.
Gosh.
I don't know if i'm just being paranoid or what.
But i still think i smell after a long shower.
Man~
Don't do this to me.

I felt like my contact lenses were melting in my eyes while i was conquering the pit.
But surprisingly, i didn't eat much.
Geez, to think of it, i never eat much during barbecue.
Although chicken wings are my favourite.

Well, I prefer to be a demure lady & wait for people to prepare food for me.
So next time round, i'll stay away from the pit.
Wahahaha!

I realised... i'm talking rubbish.
Tired.
Night peeps.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Labels: - I'll still think of you.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

HAHAHAHA!!!
I really feel like laughing!
Geez~ I'm really laughing!
I think i look pretty dumb, laughing at the monitor.
HAHA!
Can't help it.

Some people's blog entries just makes me laugh.

Well...
Not the whole entry la.
Just certain parts, somewhere somehow.

Anyway, life still goes on as usual.
I was late for visual diary meeting this morning.
Guess where's the meeting place.
Admiralty.
And guess where i stay.
LOL
Woodlands.
HAHA!
i know, this is getting dumb.
But yeah, wasted my 4 bucks to cab down from my house to admiralty -.-"

The whole session was kind of fun.
With lots of laughter & lame jokes.
Watched cute babies pronouncing 'Kiss my ask' (kiss my ass), 'Fire Fuck' (fire truck), 'BuhLud' (blood).
The 'fire truck' baby was damn funny! haha
He pronounced fire fuck instead.
Later his dad urged him to pronounce, 'Oh Truck'
The baby slapped his head and said 'Oh Fuck!'
HAHAHAHA!
You peeps should go search for these funny videos on youtube for a hysterical laugh.
It helps when you feel down =)

I'll still think of him.
But very soon, i believe i won't anymore.
By then, I'll be very proud of myself.
For taking a step out from the world i always shut myself in.
Although the steps i'll be taking will be all alone & somehow difficult, i know i'll be able to overcome them somehow or another.
Wish me all the best k?
I know he would want me to depend on myself finally, right??
You've taken care of me for so long.
All the memories, tears & laughter, i'll always remember.
Thanks so much!
I still like the nicknames. You're my HONEY and i'm your BEE!
Haha! Thanks wilson.
HUGZ!

P.S. Must remember k? I'm the one who loves you more than anyone else before. *wink

Labels: - I'll be ready someday

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Met huston by coincidence.
LOL he look damn funny with his oversized uniform & bike =X

Girl, you're right.
Even if i got the person, there's no point holding on without having his heart with me.
Both of us will end up getting hurt.

All along i knew.
But deceived myself with false hope.
It's her who can make him happy.
Not me.

I'm just a burden.
She's the treasure.

And i'll face it.
I'm not the one.

If you're reading this, well, i wish you all the best. We'll still stay as friends. I'll be there when you need someone.

P.S. If you love her, let her know. Don't regret after chances slip away. There might not be a second chance.

Labels: Anyway, Happy Father's Day =)

I've decided.
To let go.
Give up on hanging on.
My own world have always been revolving around him.
But now, i know.
In his heart, there's no longer me.
In his world, there's much more important things & people than me.
I can no longer hold on.
Because neither him or i will be happy.
Thus, i chose to give up.

Thanks for everything.
But you and i know that you don't love me anymore.

Goodbye to all the previous chapters.
I'm starting a new story,
all about myself =)

Labels: - Don't you realise? I'm just an empty shell to you.

I wished upon a star tonight.
Pray hard.
Please make mine come true.

I tried so hard to smile the whole day today and it had definitely tired me out.
I hate the empty feeling inside me.

I just hoped for another chance.

Always wonder why i always wanted so much from you?
It's because it's you.
Because i love you that's why i wanted you to do that much for me.
And not other people.

But now everything's too late.
You declared all to be over.

Maybe.
Maybe this decision is the best.
After so long.

Please take the pain away from me.

Labels: - It's all because iloveyou.

Friday, June 13, 2008

I'll get myself into depression if i continue to be like this.
But i find it impossible to get over this.
I want to cry, but i think they finally went dry.

... Don't have anything in mind to write about.
I think i'll continue later.

I hope all these was a dream.
And he'll love me again.

The first and the last thing i wanted to do was to lie in bed and do nothing at all.
My mind was filled with regrets, regrets & more regrets.
I felt my world tumbling down.
But my mind's a blank.

I missed school today.
I pulled myself out of bed at 2pm.
Took a long bath.
And tried to dig my throat to let myself vomit.
But nothing came out from my empty stomach.
I just didn't feel good.
I didn't feel good mentally and physically.
My stomach churned & rumbled.
My eyes were swollen.
My throat were dry.
My ears, still ringing from all that loud music blasting into them.

I have the most irritating brother but the sweetest one as well.
He decided to cook me a meal before we went for work.
He complained bout his own cooking, but well, i think he did ok.
Although he doesn't express himself well everyday, he'll always know when i'm at my lowest spirit and tried to comfort me in an indirect way.
Alot of people care and worry for me, but i just don't realise.
Can you love me like how they love me too??

After that, i dragged myself out the door and on my way to work.
Was very late for work.
I was so tempted to just not turn up for work.

I didn't really smile today.
But forced myself to now get distracted by my thoughts.

I don't want any other guys.
Just you.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Yesterday went pretty fine.
The most important thing is that the birthday girl enjoys every bit of yesterday night.
Happy Birthday Kim!
You deserve the best of everything on your birthday.
Don't let the negative thoughts get to you.
I'm sure they do remember it's your BIG day.

Speaking of negative thoughts.
I always let them get to me.
Conquer my mind, and i never even bother to fight them back.
I couldn't even make a simple decision for myself.
In the end, i'm trashed, with just a broken heart & swollen eyes left with me.

I really want you back.
Don't you even want to try loving me again?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I'm so tired!
So worn out!
So lethargic!

Tonight's rain's sooooo heavy.
It came so sudden.
Without any warning.
Just a few light thunders.
Then huge gust of wind.
And, "Broooom", heavy droplets of rain just splitter & splatter in a really messy way.
I thought it was typhoon, or hurricane, or tsunami that hit Singapore lo.
Damn scary!

I finally finished my tshirt design assignment.
Lol.
Happy.
Next, the mural.
What should i create lei...

I'm gonna make everything work tomorrow!
Pray Hard!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

OhMyGoodness!!!
I'm so worn out!
Been sleeping late & waking up early for a couple of days.
Slept at 4plusam, woke up at 9am.
God.

I slept at 3am this morning & woke up at 8am.
Thinking i was late for class at 9am.
Geez..
Woke up my papa to fetch me to school, since he's on his way to work.
Got into papa's van & realised that class starts at 11am today.
Kaoz...
I sacrificed my sleep!
Ahhh!
I could hardly open my eyes when i was having breakfast with papa.
Then i decided to go back home first instead of reaching school early for nothing, again.
That's when my stomach rumbled & ached.
There's something wrong with that milo & kaya+butter toast =(

Early in the morning, when my day haven't even started, things are going wrong.
Oh man...
Please don't dampen my mood today.
I still have the whole day & night to survive.
I'm so so tired.
Going to get my BF shirts today.
First time experiencing online shopping.
Lol.
Looking forward to add new clothes to my empty wardrobe.

Oh yes, my parents bought me a new drawer.
So nice of them =)
My parents loves me, and their actions show it all.
Not because they bought me this drawer la.
Lol.
It's because of everything they done for me, and the love & concern they shower me with.
Love them so much~

OH GOD!!!
I think my day kind of sucks!

I didn't get the job.
I didn't even get to fill in any application form.
BLOODY HELL!
I was rejected straight in the face, by a plump girl, whom i think is just a senior part timer or whatsoever.
WTF?!?!
I don't mind if it's the guy who told me, "Sorry, we're not in need of staff now."
I don't mind if it's a hot girl who told me that very same thing.
But why is it her?? She's so cocky la.
WTH?!?!
Work there, big deal ah.
I don't believe i cannot get in lo.
I don't have the looks, don't have the figure, at least got the experience.
And i'm not boosting my own ego.
I think i look better than you!
Geez...

I don't care!
Thick skin or not.
I'm going to go there until i fill in an application form!
LoL!
Bleahz!

我是打不死的蟑螂, 踩不死的野草!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

In the end, i went nowhere.
But stay at home the whole morning, afternoon & evening.
I feel f*cking rotten right now.
Bad mood.

Everyone has a place to go, know where they are heading to.
Everyone has someone to accompany them to somewhere.
Everyone has plans.
But me.

I have nowhere to go, noone to meet.
Just can think of what to do alone.

My breakfast was just 2 mini apple tarts and a few mouthfuls of bird's nest.
Then lunch was just half a rice dumpling.
Sian.

Then watched anime the whole day.
My sunday always feels like shit.

Why can't you understand...
You said you're trying, but i doubt so.
Because i don't see the actions from you, at all.

I'm just disappointed.

I'm not fussy.
But please, think what you have actually done.
I can say, nothing.

Because i'm not important to you at all.

I'm f*cking sad & disappointed!
Early in the morning.
To think that i was still so looking forward to it yesterday.
Damn.

Cancelled work.
Found replacement.
Worked out everything nicely in my mind.
But in the end, i'm still alone.

Everything i planned never worked out.
Initiate also no use.
Maybe i just fail badly in planning & organising.
Well, sad to say, i think i'm really a failure la.

Plan so nice for what.
Bought everything just for the plan, so what.
I always think about the positive outcomes.
But never would i think about the 'what if(s)'.

AhHH~
What ever la.
Don't want to cancel also cancel le.
Sian.
Console myself, anyway it's also going to rain.

But i'm still going down to Sentosa today.
Alone or not.
I won't be that dumb to go suntan myself.
I'll still go there for the interview.

Pray hard.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

Well, reading her blog really makes me think.
Did i make a mistake?
But well, a mistake or not.
Usual saying, spilled milk can never be taken back.

Now i realised.
I'll never be able to understand you.
Because you're never opening your heart to me.
I never ask.
And you never pour anything out to me.
Sometimes i really feel that it's really wasted, that we ended our friendship just like that.
We were such good friends, way long ago.
Whoever changed, i really don't know.
Maybe not one of us had changed.
But because of all those assumptions & disappointments, we thought all of us had.

I would never be able to understand.
Because you're you.
And well, yeah, i'm me myself.
We're never be able to know what both of us are thinking about, because the truth is, we never speak up.
You're afraid.
I thought i've done my best.
Then that's when we thought drifting away will be the best.
Among all of us, i don't appeal to you.
You practically broke the string that tied us together.
Hmmm, maybe it's me who broke it.
But well, i think it will never be unveiled.

Different thinkings, different feelings, different stories.
Who's right & who's wrong.
We, ourselves don't even know.
I just thought it shouldn't involve anyone but just between us.
But i see you chose to escape.
You chose to get rid of the friendship that took all of us so many years to build up.
I may be impulsive with my words.
But i sincerely regret & apologise.

I have always waited for you to really take the initiative to come open up to me.
But you never did.
Because in your heart, you have already made up your mind.
I've waited for half a year.
Then slowly, a year passed by.
But still, nothing.

Sometimes i think it was silly.
I was the first to become your best friend.
But also the first to break it off with you.
I always wonder, but never found the answer to why we end up like this.

I admit i was unhappy with your flaws.
But like everyone say, nobody is perfect.
I know it very well myself.
I admit i shared with everyone my unhappiness towards you.
But i did share those unhappiness with you too.
No matter how hot-headed i am at times.
In the end, i would still think i'm being ridiculous.

Like carol said, it's really a shame to break off a friendship which has lasted for almost 7 years.
It could actually be 7 years & still counting.

But if you have already made up your mind.
Then well, best wishes to you then.

I've said what i want to say.
If you're reading this by any chance,
Please do think twice.

We're all brought together by fate.
Destiny arranged all of us to meet.
But we failed badly.
Because we never cherish.

I can't believe it.
The hoodie i wanted to buy... was gone!
I just saw it yesterday & now it's gone!
What the hell...
We're really not fated.
Sobz~

Gotham was postphoned till further notice... yet again.
Hmmm.
At least my cab fares saved.
Lol.

Every cent counts now ok...

I have alot of shopping to do =)
Need to recruit shopping kakis & earn more money.

I'm so tired.
Work makes me feel more & more restless.

I need entertainment!

I would prefer a good boyfriend who would offer to massage my sore shoulders every now & then.
And better still!
One who would never say i'm irritating.

Friday, June 06, 2008

I'm all set to buy that jacket!
Lol
But destiny will decide if we're fated to be together.
If i go there later & it's not there.
Then really, too bad.
LoL

I need more money to do real shopping!

Oh god.
My new shoes gave me a love bite on my heels.
Damn.

Expo tour was kind of fun, yet abit boring.
But i still looked forward to the whole thing =)

Met up with grace in the evening.
Bought a bag and a dress.
Felt abit regret on buying the bag.
Had my eyes laid on a jacket from Flash&Splash.
I've decided that i should buy it.
LOL
Determined.

So disappointed that the sandles i wanted from NUM was OutOfStock.
Have to wait for at least a month to have it restock.
Damn.
NeverMind, i'll wait.
Sian.
When i have the money, nothing caught my eye.
When i don't have the money, everything seems to turn up on the shelves, making me curse & swear.

Surprises.
I'm determined to make her tear with joy.
Hee.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I feel so guilty now!
But no!
I cannot spoil everything.
I cannot give up!

You know what??
You're not my true friend either.
And i simply can't be bothered,
I'm not even affected.
Weet.
Not being childish.
Mind you.
Have much better things to attend to.
And much interesting people to hang out with.

You think your life is worse?
Think again, yeah?

I think you're much luckier than most of us.
So please, be contented.

Anyway, celebration at Gotham was postphoned to Friday.
No excuse.
Have to go already.
LOL

Quite alot happened.
But all the funny happenings.

I damaged Pixel Lab's noticeboard on Monday.
I suspect i'm born with supernatural powers.
Haha.
I just merely slide the glass panels.
Then the metal side of the noticeboard dropped on shatter on the floor.
I made myself look like a retard early in the morning.
Damn paisei.
I'm so sorry i damaged your 'grandparents' tomb, Bell.
I swear i didn't do it on purpose.
LoL

Then came Tuesday.
On my way to work.
In the bus.
A group of immature guys encountered unsuccessful attempt of getting my number.
XiaoPang came to my rescue!
Haha.
Overheard them planning to send another guy to come get what they want, after the first one failed badly.
Then XiaoPang came to sit beside me when he realised i was in trouble.
He was sitting a few seats behind me all along.
The funny thing is... they knew XiaoPang's not my boyfriend, but they couldn't do anything.
When we got down from the bus, they pointed the finger at XiaoPang.
How childish can they be.
Lol.
Anyway, thanks to XiaoPang =)

Then today.
Kind of lucky.
Free BubbleTea. Free cab ride to train station from workplace.
Hee.
But...
Before all that, before my shift for tonight came to an end.
A guy, whom he thought he was a know-it-all-about-wines, tried to impress 2 of his girl friends by trying to embarrass me.
Said all sorts of crap that insults my capable manager's professional.
In the end, he embarrassed himself.
Patrick went to his table to point out his mistake.
Lol.
Trying to prove that our customers who drank that particular wine before had their tastebuds damaged.
No No NO~

I'm so tired!
Going to shop tomorrow!
I think it's more like window shop lol!

Looking forward to everyday!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Hmmm...
Today's a very tiring day.

Tomorrow's plan is cancelled.
Postphones outing to either friday or next week.
But still, going to Gotham to reward our hard work =)
So happy.

I need to save up alot, work harder to have more money for this & following months.
Birthdays, birthdays & more birthdays.

Ahhh.
I really should hook up a rich guy.
LOL
As if...
Dream on.

Make me happy.
Make me feel important.
Make me feel secure.
Make me feel loved.

Monday, June 02, 2008

I had my fringe cut!
LOL
Actually there's nothing special la...

School's... BORING today!
Only attended P.E., then MICE, which not much was being taught.
And Design was cancelled.
So school ended at 11am instead of the usual 2pm.

Had lunch in school, then went out to J8 to watch MadeOfHonour.
A nice, romantic movie =)
It's a blessing to find a soulmate to spend the rest of your life with, while some are always searching for that soulmate of theirs in their whole life, but never been able to find them, ever.
I hope i can find that soulmate of mine too.
Maybe he's somewhere near, someone around me, who knows.
Like i say, it's easy to miss something you're not looking for.

I'm up to something & i'm not telling.
At least not mentioning it here until then.
Hope everything go on smoothly =)

Proposed an outing i've planned for PixelLab.
Hope it'll be approved.
Going to be discussed about tomorrow =D
I'm so proud of myself!
But i'll be more happy if i put in half of these efforts to my studies.
Haha.

This is Bell's new found kitten.

Damn cute.

So tiny.
Meow.

I want to turn prettier.
Hehe.
Girls, you know =X

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Nothing much today.
But...
Alot will be happening in the next few days!
YAY!
Life's getting slightly more colourful!
Happy

Haircut tomorrow after school.
Actually just the fringe.
Want to fix it before Sunday.

Work after school on Tuesday.

Movies with Lianyin after school on Wednesday.
Then maybe to Gotham with Friends at night.

Going to find something to do on Thursday since there's no work.

Work on Friday after school.

Then more work on Saturday.

And i cancelled work on Sunday.
Just to meet out with the girls to Sentosa!

Busy week i must say ^-^

Going to plan another gathering with my buds.
Miss them too.
Finding some place to go chill with them.
Any recommendations??

Lol

Let's welcome the month of June!

How i wish...
It's nice knowing that your partner actually cares & expresses their feelings somehow to you.
Just to assure you that they will always be there for you.

Every girl has her guy showering her with gifts and words of encouragement.
How nice it would be to receive something from someone you adore.
Even it's a small little gift made, using his 2 bare hands, a touch of creativity, & a whole lots of sincerity.
Although it doesn't appeal to anyone, it would mean something to me.
Anyway it's one of a kind, just for me.
But i never had that chance to receive that kind of treatment.
Maybe i'm not worth any guy to do anything for me?
Well, who knows.
Noone really appreciates me.
Ha.

All i needed was my guy to protect me, love me, care for me, think of me, support me, encourage me, share with me good & bad news.
A shoulder to cry on when i'm upset.
Laugh with me when i do something embarrassing.
Make me smile when i'm moody.
Ears open to hear my complaints & problems.
There for me when i feel lost.
Hug me when he misses me.
Call me when he thinks of me.
Support me when i'm at my worst times.
Encourage me when i'm not confident.
Is that such a high expectation from a guy?
Geez...
I don't think so.

You mean something to me.
But you make me feel so insignificant.
I would never cry for you again.
Because i know you don't love me anymore.

Don't love you no more.
Best song to tell you about my mood now.

LOL
I still think the chinese version will be easier to understand.
My direct translation sucks.
Haha.

一个女孩失戀分手了, 哭着去见上帝. 上帝问她: "你为什么这么难过?"
"他离开我了."
"你还爱他吗?"
女孩重重地点了点头.
"那他还爱你吗?"
女孩想了想, 哭了.
上帝笑着说: "那么该哭的人是他, 你只不过是失去了一个不爱你的人, 而他失去的是一个深爱他的人."

Meaningful eh?

Worked through the last day of May.
And let's welcome the month of June!
Time passes really fast i must say.
So many things to do, yet so limited time.
Alot of gatherings & outings to plan & organise.
Can't wait to meet everyone.
8th June, Girls'DayOut@Sentosa!
Looking forwatd to it.
Finally my inflatable raft can be put to use =)
And my shades!
Going to do up a To-Bring checklist.

I need rest!

Mama came home from her mini holiday~
Brought back gifts for me & bro.
Hee
A Nike digital watch.
2 t-shirts.
A Bonia bag.
IsimplyLOVEHER.

Less than a couple of weeks to holiday.
But~ i'm sure i won't be able to enjoy it much.
Work, work & more work.
Just hope i get the job i wanted to try out in.
Going for the interview soon.
Pray hard.

Going to wake up super early for a morning run later.
Fresh cool air would be really motivating =D

My shoulder muscles feel so sore after days of work.
HardLife.

Positive thoughts leads a positive life.
Hmmm
I don't feel so unlucky anymore.
I think i passed my luck to Bell.
LOL
Contagious.

Online shopping.
Some clothes caught my eye.
Gonna buy it~
Wahahaha!