| Friday, August 28, 2009 |
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I'm not in a fantastic mood recently. Just felt really okay being cooped up with work, work and just work, every single day. I no longer complain that i need a bloody break. And i seriously don't know why. Don't feel like talking, don't feel like bitching. Just want to be alone, locked up in the room, and stick my eyes to the moniter. 'Chiong-ed' a total of 2 dramas in less than a week. WhyWhyLove & DevilBesideYou. And i actually 'fell in love' with Mike He, 賀軍翔! He's freaking cute! And i just realised... Kim Bum's only 20! Okay... I think i'm behaving like a total retarded fanatic, whose behaviour, i personally hate and simply would make me 'shake my head' -.-" Currently watching Bull Fighting, 斗牛。要不要. This is what i've been doing between breaks during work. Hogging the whole com to myself, watching 'RA' (that's what my colleagues claim *shrug) But who cares! That's the only entertainment to keep me awake! If not, you'll find me drooling on the arm of that very black sofa =) The 'every few months' PMS returned just recently. Mood swings. Pettiness. Rebellious. Hot-headed. The girl who couldn't take jokes. All at once came rushing to my head. Actions were faster than my mind. Regrets after every wrong doings. Sometimes i hate myself for being so childish. Fcuk man. Don't know when my dad would start talking to me again. I know what to do and what not to, but yet, i still did it. God... Am i plain stupid or just hopelessly naive?! It's the pouring season. Every drop of the rain, soothes my heart, mind and soul. The heavier it gets, the curvier my smile would get. Weird but true... My feelings die when the last cacti dies. There wouldn't be disappointments if there's no expectations in the very beginning... Labels: - Kiss me in the rain. |
| Wednesday, August 19, 2009 |
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Wahahahahahaha~ Made use of the whole my half day's off! 100% Satisfaction! Worked till 4pm. Slacked abit in the office, watching WhyWhyLove till 5pm. Took a bus to AngMoKio, then found this interesting packging of Kortex. A black tin casing with 5 ultrathin pads in it. Hot pink somemore! How cool's that! And it just cost me $1.95! Double coolness~ Decided to make a quick visit to PasirRis. Bought durian pancakes, then made my way to Ave10 to get Lychee Martini Cake for Papa. All their desserts looked tempting. Unique flavours. Gotta try them next time =) Then took a cab and rushed to the East. Count myself lucky. Met Aazon and Irene Mama while i was waiting for the lift, they were going to make their way to send Aazon for swimming class. Darn! LOL~ If i got there a minute later, i could have had the chance to see First Young Master Ang! Hahaa~ Irene Mama said he's home what... tsk... Eh~ Chances of getting to see him, are rare okay... =/ Anyway, okay... i lied that i was nearby. Oh right, AMK's 'just beside' PasirRis. NOT! Lol! Don't want them to worry, so i blurted out a white lie. A teeny weeny lie wouldn't actually hurt right?! I just thought i wanted to pay them a visit, every once in a while, that's all =) Planned to pass them everything then take a cab to town. But in the end, the parents offered to send me to the station. Damn paisei! Keep troubling them. But it did save me from further burning a bigger hole in my purse. Took a train down to Orchard. Reached there and headed straight to Charles & Keith while waiting for my family to make their grand arrival. I still ended up burning an even bigger hole in my pocket. Bought a pair of heels. Loved the shoes, though it did hurt a bit. My conscience felt the pinch. My toes felt the wince. HEY! It rhymed! Abit -.-" Met up with them at DinTaiFung. Made our orders. Didn't have to wait long for the food to come. Started shoving alittle bit of everything into my mouth. Everything contains flour. Felt bloated after a few mouths. But we still managed to finish everything on the table and proceed to the best part of every meal! DESSERT! And that is why i insisted on having dinner in this particular outlet. Wisma Atrium's, instead of other outlets. Because.... They have that particular dessert i wanted! GREENTEAJELLYwithREDBEANandMILKSHAVEDICE! Bleahz~ YumYum! After dinner, it was near to the closing time for most stores. We walked around abit. And came across this F1 photo booth! Interesting eh?! It's something like a Neoprint machine. But instead of putting in $1x10, it's absolutely FREE! And instead of waiting for your photo to be printed out, it's done all through EMAIL! You have your picture taken, then it'll be emailed to you. Total coolness! I know i sound like a suaku, getting all excited like a total ignorant tourist. But imagine being cooped up in Mandai, near to the animals, surrounded by hundreds of orchids, 'loved' by thousands of creepy crawlies and embraced by the mighty heat and humid every single day. Imagine that you finally had the chance to really go out with your family and have fun, you wouldn't mind embarassing yourself in front of many, making people think as though you're out of your mind. I don't care! Like Papa said, as long as i'm happy ^^ I LOVE my dad. I LOVE my mum. I LOVE my bro. I LOVE ME! Sometimes i think, what wrong had i done to not deserve to receive love (counting out paternal & sibling's love). And i think, and i think, and i found myself an answer. Maybe. Just maybe. I'm around, i'm alive, i'm living to bring happiness to people i love =) 只有過不去的紅燈 沒有過不下去的日子 Labels: - ILOVEMYSELFtoomuch. |
| Wednesday, August 12, 2009 |
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If Tomorrow Never Comes - Ronan Keating Sometimes late at night I lie awake and watch her sleeping She's lost in peaceful dreams So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark And the thoght crosses my mind If I never wake up in the morning Would she ever doubt the way I feel About her in my heart If tomorrow never comes Will she know how much I loved her Did I try in every way to show her every day That she's my only one And if my time on earth were through And she must face the world without me Is the love I gave her in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes 'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life Who never knew how muchI loved them Now I live with the regret That my true feelings for them never were revealed So I made a promise to myself To say each day how much she means to me And avoid that cicumstance Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel If tomorrow never comes Will she know how much I loved her Did I try in every way to show her every day That she's my only one And if my time on earth were through And she must face the world withut me Is the love I gave her in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes So tell that someone that you love Just what you're thinking of If tomorrow never comes If i had just looked into this song when you told me to... And just tell you i love you too, my dear... Will things turn out differently?? Day by day, in a blink of an eye, it's already August. Almost 2 months. I failed to hold on any longer. You failed to look back either. Oh well... what's not mine, then just tell myself... whatever. Off days were so rare that i made sure to spend it like it meant every worth. Visited Ang's parents recently, after sooo long and had a really FILLING dinner with the family. 100% satisfaction and i'm really really glad that i could still keep in contact with them. Lovable people whom i want to show my concern and shower my love. One of the fews who really treated me like family ^^ Another few is Rol's family, i miss them too! Then had Ed brought me for a 'spin' in 'his' car. Drove around 1/4 of Singapore BLINDLY for a whole of 2hrs, just to find the way to Holland V. Finally we got there after 90mins, but i couldn't find the place i wanted to go. So we decided to go prawning. I suggested Bishan, and after we got there, SOMEONE said too crowded. So we went off again, this time to Punggol. A damn ulu place, but damn shiok when you realised the number of prawns you caught yourself =) Been out till 4am in the morning, when i had work in 6hrs time, but who cares! I had fun =D Clubbing is a waste of time and money! If you spend your free times this way, then yes. But if it's not because of Mervyn, my uber UNCOOL bro's 21st birthday, i would have just went home to kiss my pillow goodnight =) I HATE VODKA! STRONGLY AGAINST! DEFINITELY NOT TOUCH ever! I can't believe how much that little amount of it has caused me. Argh... hate myself. Like I said, I would never cry for you again. And I swear with the whole of my 20yrs of life, I didn't cry for you that very night. Rest assured ^^ New full timers are coming in soon to replace me! Now i can leave without worries. Can't wait for mid September! Labels: - I want to go sailing... |
| Wednesday, August 05, 2009 |
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Had my very first off day in August! Spent the entire day in town with Mama =) Bought 2 dresses from Hula&Co at CityLink. Bought a bag from Charles & Keith from Wisma. Contented!! We learnt our lesson. Next time when we visit a newly opened mall, we MUST try the restaurants instead of the FOODCOURT. Wtf man... Hahaha! Walked around ION and settled our stomach with junk. Now we know. Tampopo's gonna have a new outlet in Takashimaya. How cool's that?! No more travelling all the way to LiangCourt just for it man... Totally satisfied today ^^ Thank you for that email. Touched. From the very beginning, A's family objected strongly on her dating with B, saying that it has got to do with his family background, & that she will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrelled very often. Though A loved B deeply, she always asked him: 'How deep is your love for me?' As B is not good with his words, this often caused A to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, A often vent her anger on him. As for B, he only endured it in silence. After a couple of years, B finally graduated & decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to A, 'I'm not very good with words. But all I know is tht I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?' A agreed, & with B's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged. A went out to the working society, whereas B was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it was hard, but both of them never think of giving up. One day, while A was on her way to work, she was knocked down y a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bd. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realised that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh, she had lost her voice. The doctor said that the impact on her brain had caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silent cries... it's still just silence that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone, which pierced into her hear everytime it rang. She does not wish to let B know, & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, B sent millions & millions of replies, countless of phonecalls, but all A could do was nothing, but just crying. Her parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, A learnt sign language & started a new life, telling herself everyday that she must forget B. One day, her friend came to tell her B's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him. A year had passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing a invitation card for B's wedding. A was shattered. When she opened the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw B standing in front of her. He used sign language to tell her, 'I've spent a year to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You.' With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. A finally smiled. Awww~ Isn't it lovely?! Labels: - Be inspired by imperfections. |
| Sunday, August 02, 2009 |
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Omg! Upon reading this, I had no choice but just had the urge to take it without permission, I'm so sorry, Vic. But thank you to have posted this, that all the memories just came flowing back suddenly. 牵手：代表他想跟你走一段路。 抱抱：代表他想要给你温暖。 亲你：表示他很爱你。 送戒指：代表他要向你求婚。 喂你吃东西：代表他不想饿到你。 送礼物：代表他在乎你。 撒娇：代表他需要你的关心。 自己微笑：代表他在想你。 拔电话给你：代表他无时无刻都想你。 帮你梳头：代表他想跟你白头到老。 背你：代表他要跟你走天涯。 All this... except for 送戒指 & 帮你梳头 (instead of combing, he constantly smelt my hair, does that count?? Haha) I felt really loved, before. Contented =) Waiting for you~ Waiting for you~ Hahaha~ Happy August! |