my Life

Friday, April 27, 2007

had a short sch day today... went to sch at 1115 to 115... jus attended 2 hrs of lessons... before tat met bell, sam, vic, charles, shah, ain & ros in mac to hav breakfast... then went to the movies after sch... watched 'The Letters of Death', sad to say, it's not really a nice movie... the storyline was not a gd one... kindof borin... but it's ok... at least we classmates get to go for our first movie together =D

until around 4 plus... we left & i went to orchard to meet carol & the rest... i was so in need of money tat nth came to my likin at all... i dun look at shoes, clothes or anything... i got so xcited tat i finally saw the colour i wanted so much for tat new urban male bag... lite pink with gold & black... was like so nice lo... but suddenly my heart hurts... i started to get stressed up... & felt really depressed... i couldn't afford tat bag at all... i jus couldn't fork out tat kind of money... even with carol's discount card... i couldn't be so thick-skin to beg ppl for an super advanced birthday present rite... lol! ppl will jus shun me for tat... anyway, i think i'll jus drop tat idea of buyin tat bag... but i really liked~ tat bag... aww! i even tot of borrowin money to buy it... but darl dun think it's a gd idea... yeah... i tot so too... i already dun hav money with me, yet i wanna put myself in debt... like so not nice to owe ppl money without returnin until months passed... maybe yrs... lol... dun suspect... but i really owed grace tat long before... a yr... lol can u believe it... lucky grace's not hatin me for tat... haha...

but i really wanted tat bag... saded... birthday's still long... 6 mths ltr... RAWR! by then also no more le... waaaa~

workin tomolo... haiz... i'm sick of tat place with the kind of ppl there... i need fresh air & a new fresh place... the air in there is simply corrupted...

oh ya... did i mention bout tat day on wed? i worked on tat day & served LEE KUAN YEW! wooo~ i admired him so so much... he's like a father to singapore... cos he's the one who fight for the rights of singapore... dun u all think he's sooo noble... he looked very healthy... so happy to serve him hehe...

i dunno why but close or not close, i jus chose to keep quiet... rather be like last time... everythin also shoot out frm my mouth... & be so god damn noisy... i chose to stay solemn... lol! i was really quiet in sch... compared in sec sch... i was even quiet when being with carol they all... my mind would jus wander to another place... i would choose to jus smile it away... dunno wat i'm escapin frm really... maybe i jus din wan to lose any frens ba... bein a straightforward & stubborn person makes ppl shun me last time... but i know being a quiet & keep-to-myself kind of person also makes ppl stay away frm me... so i jus start my nonsense once in awhile... i dun feel lonely... but i jus dun feel rite... not the real me.. haiz

I WAN TAT BAG!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

i really dun like the feeling of being discriminated by public...

i swear if anyone laughs at me for being in ite... i'm so goin to say this in front of their face... ' hey, u know u should stop discriminatin ite students... cos u may end up being our juniors in the future... so beware of wat u say... u biatch!'

was really tired... went all the way frm bishan to tanah merah to take bus to simei ite... i was sitting in the corner seat readin my story bk... my ite logo was blocked by my hair... when i was bout to alight, i stood up... & there's these 3 sec 2-4 gerls who jus simply said aloud 'ITE la... haha'... then one of the gerls felt paisei as they commented bout this ite thing so loudly... she said to her frens 'hey, shhh... dun like this la... she will know de' all i can say is... FUK U! a bunch of immature monsters... i pretended i dunno anything & they kept whisperin to one another... '... told u she's frm ite... ' the words they said hurt me & they simply hav no brains... AT ALL! they hav no manners & no sense of shame... i can't believe i hesitated to tell them off straight away... fuk! startin to blame myself for being so timid... i should hav plucked up my courage to take back the 'pride' on ite students' behalf, tat the 3 bitches took away & simply stepped on it...

i told darl bout it... & he was fed up too... at tat particular point, i started to get demoralised... cos of the tired mind & the words they said... they would sooo regret tat they discriminate ite students today... b'cos, sooner or ltr, it will b their doom day soon...

went to woodlands to watch free movie... got free complimentary tickets frm nora... thanks to her... but there's no gd movie selection for us to choose frm, honestly... we were like sian 1/2 when the counter read to us which movies we can watch with the free tickets... darl chose 'Super Fans', we actually wanted 'Wild Hogs' but wasn't allowed to choose tat... so sad... if i'm 18 yrs old... we would hav watched the M18 gore & horror movie... lol... 6 more mths to 18 =D

'Super Fans' is not a really nice movie... for 5 stars... i would only giv 2... b'cos honestly... it wasn't tat nice tat it would attract ppl

i'm so very tired... i wanna slp WAAA~

sch till 1 tomolo... so fun... only go sch for 2 hrs... how nice... =)

Monday, April 23, 2007

OMG! can u believe it?!?!

i simply luv simei ite... it looks like a futuristic sch or sth... doesn't even look like an ite... looks more like a poly... has 2 food courts... with practically almost everything... they sell proper cake slices, icecream & even icekachang, etc... they even hav cappucino & latte... coffe place... burger store... 77th street... their co-op shop is much much more nicer & lots more things than ours... ours is like a small pathetic shop sellin almost nth, & it's located jus underneath the staircase... lol! they hav proper modern elevators which ANYONE can use it... not like our sch... '...so r u a handicapped?... hello! there's no rule sayin we cnt use the elevators... such sarcasm... dumb fella...

guess wat guess wat... they even hav a sky garden... this is soOoOoOo COOL! they hav 3 dance studios... basically their dance studio is super amazin... not like my sch... full wall lengths of mirror on all sides of the walls... so super nice rite... look like a ballet prac rm... an art studio! super duper nice... looks like a professional art rm for artist... how cool was tat~

& wat makes me amazed is they hav their own stadium! with proper seats... track & field! OMG! i would promise to anything jus to run there... oh god... can i run there? i jus can't join their track team... cos of the time wise... they start at 4... & sadly... my sch ends at 4 too... so i tot of either join rock climbin or karate... LOL! karate... can u imagine me tryin to b a karate kid?!?! WAHAHAHA~!!! when i master the advance stage of karate... u all beta think twice before u mess with me =D

& they even hav POSB atm machine! gah~ so super modern... my sch is nth compared to theirs... so lucky of darl... wahhhh~

I"M GOIN TO TAKE PART IN ANOTHER NDP PERFORMANCE! this time it's being held jus across oriental hotel... the whole performance will take place on the water surface... it's so super excitin... oh ya! can't miss tat goodie bag too =D but the whole performance will b so diff frm the past few yrs... totally diff i must say... the performers... the costume... basically the whole thing... i can't wait till the performance day wahahahaha~ there's gonna b laser performance... dun miss it k, ppl?

darl... I LUV U! can u dun always say break break break... -.- i'll break ur head when i learn karate... hee ya! haha

Saturday, April 21, 2007

is it the peak season for break ups this mth? so many couples whom i know broke up for dunno wat reasons... & i certainly dun wish to know... hope we won b like them, rite darl? altho we'r not as luvin but i still luv u tat much all the same =* muackz

i luv mag-a-cone strawberry ice cream cone... simply yummy! one part taste almost like haagan daaz ^^

i failed to convince darl... thanks for ur support baobei... always luv u =) altho she's younger than me by a yr, she's much more sensible than me... i'm so taken by her logics & her sensibilty... tat's wat makes everyone trust her so much... y can't i b like her =( so sensible... independent... waaa!!! i jus hate myself... saded

DARL!!! PLS GIV ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO SHOW U TAT I'M CAPABLE OF WAT I'VE PROMISED??? i promise tat i will hav time for u... i would nv choose work over studies or over you... waaa! it's totally impossible to find a job who would let me work for 2 days... it's simply impossible la... WAAAA~ y nobody trust me sobz!

Friday, April 20, 2007

i'm actually thinkin of takin up a second job... yesh... pratically workin on wkdays after schdays... my mum allowed it... but i still hav to giv my reasons to my dad & darl... hope i could outtalk them & hope they would understan i giv me the permission... haiz!

i started to hav these thoughts of workin wkdays b'cos i simply hav not much money left in my bank... & no matter how hard i tried to save up, the amount jus wouldn't go up... totally depressed... i dun mind the restaurant's $4.50 per hr pay... cos the hrs will b short & it won end late... & the salary jus go into ur bank account... which was wat i really wanted... for the hotel job... altho the pay is much more... but the hrs r long & it ends quite late... & i only can work on wkends for tat... takin away the days i'm goin out with my frens & darl & my family... i can basically only work 1day... which tells everyone tat, it's similar to not earnin anything... cos i would eventually spend my earnings after an outing...

i was plannin to work at least 3 days in a restaurant or a retail outlet per wk... straight after sch... wouldn't b rushy... cos obviously i would choose a place either near to my sch or my hse...

darl... can u giv me this permission pls... i promise i would study hard for watever i'm in for... & i won neglect u at all... i promise... i won get stressed up or anything... i promise... b'cos this is the decision i chose & i would nv regret wat i hav decided =)

CHEERIO~

Thursday, April 19, 2007

gettin quite used to sch le... the ppl there quite nice also... my craps startin to come also... lol! i'm nv gonna regret transferrin to event management course... get to go for excursions & overseas visits... LOL! part of our modules schedule =D the most fun part of sch is to go out of sch... Learn more Teach LESS WAHAHAHAHA~! LUV IT~

jus the 4th day of sch, & teacher's askin who wanna go for a vietnam trip in july... a 5 days 4 nites trip! cool man... the prob is the money... jus blame myself for not being a pure singaporean... bah! no edusave... so not fortunate... haiz... but i dun care... it's like once in a lifetime for all this overseas trips =)

i'm gonna get a locker on monday... my bag's super heavy with all the notes... lol!

ITE's not bad too... thinkin if i wanna continue my 2 yr ite or go to poly if my Os results r beta... but the real thing is taught only next yr... -.- in a dilemma*

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

16 april
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my first day of sch was like shit... super duper sad case... here goes my day......

went to sch, met up with shuzhen at the front gate... was at first happy to find amirul, mingguang, cecilia & many other familiar faces... but then... worse came to worse... i couldn't find my name in either admin or event management... so i was thinkin where my name could b... it's impossible if they told me i dun belong to this sch... cos i paid for the fees... so i was told to wait in one corner while the others hav their assembly... i started to get fustrated when the students started movin into different directions for their orientation... so i made my way to the office again to ask... & eventually they checked up my docu... guess where my name appeared in... ACCOUNTING!!! wtf! i felt totally ridiculous... i honestly dunno how the hell i got my name into tat course... ok nvm... the teacher was kind enough to take me to my respective class... to my horror... i realised she brought me to the wrong class after i asked cecilia wat class we were in... ADMIN!!! i was supposed to b in event management... for pete's sake... i super feel like cryin lo... durin the break i decided to go ask bout my actual placin again... the staff was bit annoyed to c me again... but i really dun fukin care... cos i paid the full amount of sch fees... so i dun xpect myself to go into a course i dun actually belong to... then she also looked bit puzzled... then the teacher who brought me to the wrong class... realised her mistake after she went off... she laughed, & i actually laughed with her... but honestly, it's not funny at all... lol... eventually i finally got to my actual class... GAH! FINALLY! THANK GOD... but too bad i couldn't get to know more bout my class today... i hav a feelin tat the guys in my class abit cnt make it... not the appearance... but the behaviour... lol!

i still dunno wat CCAs the sch has... lol... nth interest me... absolutely nth... sad to say tat the committee in the activities doesn't seem committed at all... maybe i should go back to where i belong... track?? rawr!

17 april
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R THEY TRYIN TO PLAY WITH ME... !!! believe it or not... i jus get to c my ACTUAL class today... durin the 2nd lesson... a started the day off almost without a soul... my mind could simply wander to another place easily... first lesson was another talk again... haiz... i dozed off & awoke for a few times... lol! actually wasn't really tat borin... but i jus felt tired... i jus couldn't help it but slp when i'm seated down & without a very interestin thing to occupy my mind... it's jus like someone would jus hit my soul out of me... rawr! after the first lesson was over... the teacher told me the class i'm attendin was full... so i hav to transfer to another class.. i was like... -.- "there won be anyone else who would be more unlucky then me..." ok... i smiled & jus let the whole matter rest... no point makin any annoyed expression... at least i NOW hav a proper class.. but when i got hold of my everyday lesson schedule... i was sian 1/2... i was so lookin forward to b let off at 1pm... but my current class' daily let off was either 4pm or 5pm... i only look forward to monday... 9am to 1pm... lol! i won ever hav monday blues... but one gd thing bout my class is... i won hav to attend assembly!!! super duper happy... haha no national anthem, no pledge... NO SCH SONG!!!!! haha... not one day i hav to wake up tat early to attend assembly... lol! envious ?!?! wahahahaha~!!!

alot had happened a few days back... i jus dun wan to go back like last time... pls let me change for the beta... a new yr a new life... CHEERIO! i jus luv my darling!!!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

went out with ivy to town today... we had quite a fun day together =) met each other in cineleisure at 330pm... then went up to e2max, wanted to rent a rm to watch dvd movie de... so went back down to yoshinoya to da bao lunch... who knows... went up with our bags full of food & the rms r all fully booked... need to wait till 6 plus... ok... we waited... so while waitin we sat on high stools next to the rms to eat our lunch... one of the rms had their windows facin me... it's totally cool... this means i can watch thru the window without even payin!!! cool rite... wahahaha! only without the audio effects... i think they were malay couples... watchin 'The Maid' haha they knew i was peepin in one corner... they looked out & saw me sittin down there enjoyin... =p but wat can they do... precisely nth haha!
so waited till 6 plus... go ask for rms again... yet they told me jus now their colleagues made amistake... actually there's only empty rms available after 830... freak! was like... gah! hav to wait another 2 hrs... so decided to do bookin first then go down do some window shoppin... decidin to do window shoppin is always bullshit! u'll always end up spendin money somehow... feel like slappin myself... lol! i bot 2 pairs of new shoes... & i even decided to giv up on the current black nike bag i'm aimin for as my sch bag cos i dun think it looked nice after havin a closer look... looks much different this time i looked at it than the time i saw it in topshop... like hav diff FEEL... lol! so now! i planned to buy newurbanmales' bag wahahaha! the steep price will kill me & make my mum faint... she'll start naggin till my ear drums vibrate man... hoo... i dunno wat her reactions will b when she learnt tat i hav bot 2 new shoes... she'll definitely strangle me... but guess how much the bag cost... guess how steep the price is... $149!!! ahhh~!!! i dunno wthell i wan a sch bag so xpensive for... lol! i'm definitely not buyin it to showoff... but i really start gettin mesmerised to tat bag... lol! no matter how gdlookin the hunks look in tat outlet, i simply can't be bothered... cos the only beautiful thing i will look at in the shop is their bags & lovely slippers... lol! i'm not wierd... i'm jus not interested & this means i'm faithful to my only darl! WAHAHAHAHA! i'm not praisin myself =X
no nice clothes i can get my eyes & hands on... & of cos my wallet... actually almost wanted to buy gallaz flipflops... frm $16.90, 70% off, down to only $5.04, how cheap can tat be... but the slipper pattern itself is very plain... so was kind of reluctant to buy it even if it's cheap... cos i hav one pair of gallaz slippers... so decided to giv it up lo... wanted to buy a new pencil box also... hav so many things to buy before sch starts... waaaa~ but no money to enjoy this kind of luxurious shopaholic life... bah! i still ask god y my family aren't rich... lol! stupid ques to ask
ok... went up to e2max at 830... guess wat the person told us... they actually allowed the previous users to xtend their time to 930, the worse thing they did was... they allowed them to xtend without lettin us know first... i wasn't angry yet in the first place... jus started to feel super sian... until i ate my icecream... my blood jus boiled... i feel like 'shootin' the person back... tellin them tat it's their god damn fault... i wouldn't b angry if i only waited like 2 hrs or so... but me & ivy waited for like 4hrs for tat damn rm & now they tell us to wait for another hr... which is 5hrs of waitin time for a stupid rm... ivy & me feel very stupid lo... if there's a gd movie to catch... we would choose to watch a nice movie rather than wastin our time waitin for a dumb rm... so i jus told the counter off... tellin her they shouldn't hav jus agreed to giv them another hr without askin our permission first... 1: it's totally rude to not ask permission 2: the previous user's time is up already... another user is rdy to use tat rm... i jus cnt imagine if today i'm waitin for this particular rm with darl lo... he sure let out his ultimate combo de lo... i jus told them they shouldn't do this again... wat if other customers weren't as patient like us... they would jus slam on the counter & scold them upside down de lo... at least i told them off nicely... & the gerl looked like a trainee to us... but she's well-mannered... so we jus forget it... & waited till 930... finally! we can watch our 'Stay Alive' in peace... the show was nice... even ivy who wasn't afraid of watchin horror movie thinks it's nice & kinda scary... lol! gamers... i wouldn' even dare touch tat game if there's really such games xistin... the place was small but was a perfect place to chill for a small grp wantin to complete a movie marathon =) which one day we will do tat soon... haha! dun book a rm with 4 pcs or so... it's really not worth it... cos u hear more of the noise comin frm the PCs rather than frm ur movie... lol! it's kinda distractin really...
after the movie it was like 11plus le... we were so afraid tat we would miss the last train & bus... lol! but lucky we got them... so home sweet home

do u all know bout tammy, the gerl who had her sex video put up in internet last yr... frm nyp ??
i jus read her blog... jus learnt tat she's a very strong-will gerl... super strong... really, mus admit this... for normal gerls... they would feel super duper ashamed of themselves upon havin all this happenin to them... but not her... not tammi ( this is how her name should b spelt )... she din care bout how ppl think & how ppl looked at her when she walked past... she ignored the remarks ppl said to her when she came across evil ppl who wanted to make her embarrassed... she wrote great comments on her blog tat i admire her courage, she's livin her life meaningfully... cos she hav great frens supportin her & luvin her... & of cos the guy in the video... everybody xpected him to leave tammi... but no... till now they r still together... believe it or not... it's true... truthfully, 9 out of 10 guys will surely dump the gerl if such incident happen... so i guess her man is the 10th faithful guy who will forever stand by her... so envious of her havin such a faithful guy... awww~

Monday, April 02, 2007

went to east coast last sunday for a picnic with darl, ivy, angelina, mervyn, kell, raymond, meiting & aldrin... ate homecooked food, was nice =) only raymond bought 8 packets of beehoon... haha! he tot he feedin pigs ah... 1 person 1 packet... after eatin, played bun luck, always lose money... went to fly kite after feelin sick of losin money... got a little breeze... but wasn't able to fly the kite... lol then built sandcastles alone... end up diggin sand & buryin my feet... decided to go roller bladin before it turns dark... angelina & kell taught me & ivy to skate... wahahaha!! i'm a talented sportsperson!!

was workin real hard these few days... workin mornin 4 days in a row... super tirin... din get enough slp... worked like a zombie... lol! all b'cos of money...
was quite slack on fri... only very borin... meetin in the mornin... stood outside the rm frm mornin 8 am to 5 pm... then went down to millenia rm to handle small weddin function... lol the weddin was super lame, the ppl there like very unorganised... but the fun part was when everythin ended & all the guests had left... it's our own BUFFET TIME!!! wahahaha! it was the first time in my life to hav the whole of half the peking duck placed in front of me... haha! super nice =D but i feel so paisei before tat... one of the guests took my hand & kissed on it... sayin thanks... lucky he was a caucasian & was quite nice-lookin... super paisei lo... my manager called me back so tat the same thing wouldn't happen again... i blushed so hard tat i felt super hot... lol... i think tat the function bit wierd lo... the couple was a mixture... bride is a korean but looked a little old , groom is a scottish... guess wat the bride wore for her shoes... white flip flops with feathery fluffs... my colleagues & i frm the start tot the woman beside the bride is her mother... but totally mistaken... she's her SISTER... gosh... she looked too old to be her sis... but looked young to become her mum too... the wierd part was tat the frens insisted i stand beside the pastor to take photos... make me look like a movie star or sth... once he took the photo... everyone started takin out their cams... bah! all my colleagues laughin at me... damn embarrasin lo...

today was supposed to go watch movie with darl de... but in the end stayed in his hse the whole afternoon... cos he wasn't feelin well... hope he will be ok tomolo ba... maybe goin to eat sakura with my baobei WAHAHAHAHA!

HAPPY BELATED APRIL FOOL'S DAY!