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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
an athelete's attitude - nv say u'r givin up..

i hate to say this but this guy in track is a fukin loser! he only knows how to talk & boast but couldn't get wat he targetted... god damn it... for example, he said he gonna take down the top 4 placing for 1500m... fuk & guess wat... he really got the 4th position but countin frm the BACK! wtf! he n his dumb wishful tots la... aim so high yet couldn't get it... still ask if he can drop the relay races b'cos he's freakin TIRED~ helloOoo~ as if u'r the only one tired around here... i think everyone's givin their best shot, no matter wat position they came in, at least they tried but i dun see u tryin & puttin in ur effort... freak u la... wat a senior r u... givin us these juniors all those negative xamples... still say wat as a senior blablabla... u'r gonna quit... it's obvious... u'r not retirin, u'r QUITTIN! retirin is an xcuse & moreover... u'r not even eligible to use this word... u'r an athelete who actually mentioned U wanna QUIT! i hate athelete's who giv up half way... & last thing i really hav to mention... U'R FUKING IRRITATING! argh~ i dunno why he can talk so much NON-STOP! rawr~ i hav my limits boy...

i dunno which campus u all r frm... but y make such a big fuss over the positions & medals! fuk~ make me god damn pekcek la... i know i'm kindof rude... but i jus cnt stand it... u all claimed tat u all got 1st for 4x200m... but wtf... r u even the last runner?!?! ask here ask there... i'm the one who knows who's first who's 2nd ok... bishan ite's first for tat particular event! for fuk's sake, b'cos i'm the last runner & i took the lead when i got the baton... the 2nd team came after a few seconds... can't u freakin use ur eyes to see... & where's ur 4th runner... y dun confirm with her before claimin number 1... geez~ i think i'm bit rude by sayin aloud, haha funny... "... if u wan the 1st position medal so badly then take it... i dun mind takin the 2nd one... i know we came in first... " LOL! my teammates kindof shocked la... tried to stop me... but too bad... i've said it... lol~

u din know how sad & disappointed i m now... u said u'r comin to see me run & i tot u would... but in the end... frm the start till the end of the races, u din come at all... u din come support me... track's important to me, mayb not to u... but for all these years... u din know how much i wanted u to b there to see me run... cheer for me, watch me run... i dun wanna tell u when's my intercollege run... it's in the holidays & i dun wanna get the same disappointment again...

lastly... my entry of the day for today!

i had a great sense of accomplishment today... i'm really glad tat i achieved sth higher than wat i aimed for...

  • 1500m - 2nd place
  • 800m - 2nd place
  • 4x100m - 2nd place
  • 4x200m - 1st place
  • 4x400m - 2nd place

these r jus me & my teams' results.. there's another bishan team... miko's team... lol! they did great too ^^

Bishan Campus Trackmates! every single one of us did out best, gave our best shots, put in every effort into all events... new sch, new frens, new goals!

i luv my class buds! they'r jus simply amazing!

SQUIGGY LUV~

CHEERIO~

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
i've come up with a new wishlist... categorised into 2 grps... the unimportant & the important ones



Super Important wishlist


  1. A pair of SpikeShoes

  2. Contact Lens

Not SoOo Important wishlist



  1. New Clothes.. Oh God IT's THE SALES SEASON

oh god! hav to earn more money & save up more before this season's over... so envious tat ppl can buy watever they want... wa~ y i no money to spend =(


i'm so freakin tired this days... i think i know wat's the cause for my hair loss, due to lack of slp... gah~ tat's wat my papa told me... & my mood's kindof suk recently, felt so tired... & my brain's not functioning well... not like it functioned well in the past thou... lol! but i jus needed more slp


Shrek the 3rd is comin out soon! i wanna watch!

i hav a race tomolo! so xcited... hope i ace in it =D but too bad darl won be able to see me run tomolo! but i think i'm runnin on wed too hehe! hope i ace in all the races waha~ i jus luv track! & competitions!


Friday, May 25, 2007
'Pirates of the Caribbean - At World's End' is abit of a disappointment too me...

i admit my english sucks! lol! half of the time i dunno wat they r talkin bout in the movie... it's either the english they spoke r too slang or i couldn't really catch wat they r talkin bout or it's jus too hard to understand wat they r sayin... haha... the storyline's a bit complicating... even darl says so... but overall... the effects r nice... & there's some little parts of comedic scenes... the characters i like most are the cute little monkey & the tiny little stone crabs! so cute la...

hav to thank bell for inviting me & darl along to the movie =) was really nice & kind of her... appreciate her offer =D hav to thank her gf & gf's mum too... for givin us the tickets ^^
watched with bell, nikki, her sis, sis's fren, sean & brian chew, darl & other frens of theirs...
haha! bell tot our seatings for the movie are free seatings! so funny la she... WAHA~ actually we ended up in the very front seats... neck cramp! lol~ i keep on fidgeting... hehe... sry if i irritate any of u... can't help it... with the large movie screen in front of me... the strong blow of the airconditioner makin my eyes so dry... my xpired contact lens tat made my eyes so red & painful... i jus couldn't help but fidget RAWR!

bell's right side... near to the neck swelled up ytd... supected tat it was due to her bad infected throat caused by her sore throat... so poorthing... but we can't help laughin at her b'cos she became very conscious & keep on sayin she's gonna die... haha~ but i also very bad... ppl so anxious i still laugh at her swollen cheek... but was funny mah *shy...
so accompanied her to the doctor... then had lunch at the coffeeshop under her block

went to bell's hse then... partly cos curious how their hse looks like... majority is cos i want to see her cats... all 7 of them... but i only got to see 5 out of 7 of them ^^ it actually surprised me when i saw the cats... they r all overly nourished! haha~ all big, fat & round! OVERWEIGHT CATS! but their furs r all nicely groomed & brushed... they r so smooth & clean & soft to touch... if my hair like their fur... how nice... smooth smooth one... hehe
but i almost got scratched & bitten by notti Patch... sobz... Patch almost got into a fight with another nice cat... Patch so fierce la... bell warned me... but i still touched it... tot it liked me mah... comin to me & lettin me touch... *thick-skin...

was kindof moody today... dunno y... but suddenly had difficulty in breathin then not feelin very well... felt sick... but very quickly i'm fine le... wasn't really happy with a lot of things recently... hope things will change for the beta in the future... hopefully thou...

i hav a new & more cuter name now... SQUIGGY! haha~

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
if u meant me, i'm not havin a conflict with anyone! gah~



i'm havin a really hard time chewin food... i take a really long time to finish my food... so paisei la... let everybody wait for me to finish... lol... i can't imagine me tryin to eat after i put on the upper teeth braces... terrible~



i dun need to go suntannin & i've already get so tanned... lol! all b'cos of runnin... i wanna be an islander.. wanna go make the membership card next time...



darl discovered a new game again... haiz... which means he'll b so engrossed to the game tat he won rmb contactin me...



weet~ jus finished 5km run today... not really contented b'cos we had a couple of intervals durin the run... =( i wanna start trainin for track events le... hope i get 400m & below events & of cos my fav... RELAY!

Sunday, May 20, 2007
i had braces put on my lower teeth... upper teeth havin their braces on next mth...

very uncomfortable & numb... cnt bite, grind my teeth, chew.. even swllowin saliva also a prob... haha din know so inconvenient de... haiz... now i think i'm gonna be the slowest to finish my food durin recess... even slower than vic... haha *no offence... hmmm i think i gonna hav porridge everyday.. =( saded la...

Saturday, May 19, 2007
was so happy today *grin... this might jus be the best day of the yr hehe~

celebrated our belated anniversary today =D today was really fun... muackz luv darl...

went to thai xpress to hav my mango+sweetened glutinous rice with coconut cream/milk lol... with bell, sha, ros & her bf... after tat rushed to tampines to take my present... after tat rushed to vivo to meet darl... lol! i wore the new blouse darl bot for me... had difficulty with tying the ribbon behind... so no choice hav to paisei bit ask a lady to help me in the toilet... =p

went to eat at 'The Mussel Guys' i hope i got the name rite... lol! not xceptionally delicious but it's nice =) there's this really handsome & hot looking manager... & he's a caucasian... keep on peekin to look at him... haha & keep on gigglin like darl's not there like this... haha! super fun la... see his face like wanna jus walk away like this =p i had choc banana for dessert... it's bit too sweet n chocolatey... the banana taste more like kueh pisang's banana... haha

after tat we were thinkin if we should watch movie or not... was thinkin of watchin 'Born in a Brothel'... it's a documentary movie... lol! darl hates it... so with no choice & my continuous whining & pesterin... he gave in... & so we took the monorail frm vivo to sentosa, bot the tickets to watch 'Song of the Sea' the storyline was lame... but the effects were super nice... u guys really should watch it... it's not an everyday thing u could xperience ya know... haha the lightings, fire effects, laser effects, water effects... there's even fireworks!!! cool la... like it so much... even darl agreed the effects were beautiful ^^

my present for darl is a pair of couple polo t-shirt... designed by me & it's an one & only design... haha... my present frm darl is ritz carlton's bears... haha he very cute la... i hav one of the bears le... he din know & bot the same one for me... but i still luv it all the same =D cos it's frm darl! thanks so much

we enjoyed the day together today MUACKZ~ didn't we?

The Mussel Guys' signboard



my toe has this wound... the skin jus tore off.. see... the wound's shaped of a heart... isn't it nice... for your info... i jus tore the skin away randomly... i din cut my toe... lol! tiny heart-shaped wound




the kopitiam nearby my sch had this heart shape toast pic on the signboard... lol! & they really had xactly the same thing like in the pic... haha! my breakfast... horlicks & heart-shaped kaya-butter toast




i luv darl & he luvs me *heart...








i'll always tell myself tat he's always been tryin to giv me the best in everything le...








tat's y i luv him so much & i shouldn't doubt his luv for me... *wide grin

Friday, May 18, 2007
i'm fukin sad today... hidden sorrows behind a smile...

y m i always so diff frm other ppl... i'm not smart, i'm not in poly, i'm actually always the one who's being neglected & forgotten... it's jus so not fair... wat did i do wrong tat ppl shun me... isit b'cos among all of u, i'm the only one in ite? isit b'cos i'm the only one wearing ite uniform tat's y u all dun ask me out? y the fuk i hav to be treated like an abandoned doll tat u adore for period of time then throw me in a corner when u got bored of me... i know u all din treat me like one but i feel like one...

the fact tat u actually din even know if u told me u hav a blog anot, already hurts me so much... to think tat i was once UR best fren... maybe not... i know this time i'm not being childish or makin another nuisance... it's jus u... all of u... i know wat i'm not being ridiculous... try puttin urself in my shoes... i know i din make the initiative to ask everyone out... but u all had the initiative to ask one another out... all invitations were given out... i'm the only one who's not invited... how nice... for a fren... everytime seeing all of ur photos together... without me... ha... dun all of u even think tat u'r missing someone... the pics wasn't important... i dun care if i'm in any of it or not... but wtf... i'm not askin much... i jus want to b part of u all... part of the grp... like last time... i'm not askin for money or wat... i jus dun want to b the neglected kid... most of u studied in the same sch, stayed in the same place... ez to meet out... me? it's hard for me, u know... don't u treat me as ur fren too... or m i long forgotten & already been kiked out of the grp...

if u feel awkward askin me out or havin me around... jus tell me... i know wat to do... i'll permanently stay out of ur lives...

i'm not lookin for attention... i dun wan to b the limelite... i dun wan to b the star... i jus wan my frenship back... my 5 yrs frenship back... tat's all i'm askin for... couldn't it b fufilled, not even this tiny request i'm askin for too?

believe it or not, i'm cryin while typin... i dun hav any motive for tellin this to u... i crying frm the bottom of my shattered heart... & i truly meant every single word i said in here... & i'm really tat desperate to treasure our 5 yrs frenship...

i'm not sayin tat i'm not havin frens in ite... i hav great frens who cares for me, luvs me & always there to help me... bell, sam, vic, ain, ros, sha, charles... basically all my classmates r really nice... i also met new frens who r real nice too... lixin, the students in ISF (stalker aka mandy, anita, gaselle, debra, miko, angie, veron, ningxing, aizhen) they r all nice ppl, & wat more can i ask for... i'm most contented to hav them for my new chapter in life... it's always nice to meet new ppl... but i'll nv forget the old ones =) oh ya... how could i forget my adorable baobei aka ivy, xiaobaobei aka kell, angelina, the guys, mervyn & company... they formed bits & pieces of memories of my life too... life's not boring at all, yet my life's meaningful, with all these ppl who luved me... & i should luv myself more... believe myself more... believe in others... put trust in them... so, i'll start... this time me being more initiative... makin the first move, to gain everyone's trust...

watched 'Blades of Glory' today... with darl, raymond & kell... was a really funny show... haha! u all should really go watch... all thou the storyline bit lame... but overall it's a nice comedy... & the storyline's complete... hee~

darl... i'll try not to be a burden to u... i wan to be more of a blessin than a burden to u...

Wednesday, May 16, 2007
3rd yr anniversary... so wat's the big deal bout it...
gah~

i'm so gonna strangle raymond... nv bothered to let me know HE left the god damn sch before sch ends... freak... made me take taxi & almost rushed to HIS sch... taxi fare xpensive u know... duh!

i luv surprises but HE doesn't... all those things u said pierced rite thru my heart... fuk... i dunno y u jus wouldn't b contented by wat i did with all my effort... u jus wasn't satisfied... great disappointment! don't u know how i would feel? can't u try puttin URSELF in MY shoes? gah! u dun seem to care... at all! u're the most un-romantic guy ever... rowdy & full of vulgarities... u only creates new form of vulgarity combos, u would nv rack ur brain to think of romantic ideas & waste UR time to PLAN them... at least i did my part... only U dun think it's necessary & surprising... it makes me happy to plan it & thinkin tat U would LIKE it... but NO, i was so wrong... u would nv b happy with wat i'v done for u... & tat's not only wat i think but also wat i hav always xperienced... told me to treat u beta... so now wat... grr~

i wasn't payin any attention in nite class today... jus couldn't get anything into my mind... my mind jus wanders everywhere... so for the whole of 3 hrs... i was playin my sudoku game... lol! i kind of think this strategic game is fabulous... haha~ exercise my brain... it's startin to produce more brain cells & i can feel it... waha~

i'm so super forgetful today... n practically dumb i must say... i was late for sch... so i rushed down frm hm in a taxi... jus when it was drivin on the xpressway... pe shorts came into my mind... yes! PE lessons' the first... i wasted money to rush down is cos of tat lesson too... & i simply can't miss pe... it's my fav sub in sch... & today we were supposed to hav roller blading lesson number 1... there's 6 lessons for all i know... hmmm! oh gosh... i went all around sch to find ppl whom i know to ask for pe shorts... LOL! none of them has it -.- saded... was super sad la... but hav to thank bell for accompanyin me to look for shorts... i gave up findin... sat in one corner for awhile... then suddenly i feel like tryin my luck in findin my track coach again... it's god who's watchin over me... thank god i glanced thru the canteen again & yes! fortunately i saw mr koh... WAHA~ lucky he's a super nice teacher... he agreed to lend me fbt shorts... hee! & so, eventually i still had my PE lesson after all =D

there's this little gerl who was really cute... her mummy has a bulging tummy... this gerl touched her mummy's tummy & said "baby baby!" haha! super cute de la

i hav to thank bell for many things she helped me for today =)

you're in my top 10 list WAHA haha

CHEERIO

Monday, May 14, 2007
i'm sick & tired but happy today! it's mama's day =D i bot a pair of SK jewellery's earrings... the diamonds might be tiny but my mum appreciates it... & tat's wat i'm glad & hav expected ^^ she dunno how to xpress her feelings but i know she's really smiling inside haha! she wore my earrings... actually is ours... lol shared the present with my bro... mus go take money frm him waha~...

work was really tirin today... plus i'm sick... sneezing the whole day... maybe cos of the smell of food in the kitchen... the food smells delicious but irritates my nose... runnin nose now... haiz... there's so many young ppl treatin their mum to hav lunch in summer pavillion... they r super rich la... lol! mother's day special for 8 ppl already $800++... imagine how much it will be for less than 5 members in the family... lol! one person at least $100++ but i promised my parents, would take them to summer pavillion to celebrate their 50th birthday =) tat day will be long enough for me to save up... haha... can't imagine how the children will feel spendin soooo much on jus eatin... lol! & barely fillin for guys... i know my heart will ache for a few days... but it's the sincerity tat counts... so it's worth burnin ur wallet & pockets jus to make ur folks & loved ones happy... seeing them hav a wide smile pasted on their faces will make a day become a beta day... waha~

but fortunately there's charmaine to accompany me... lol! if not i'm so gonna be ruled by boredom... after work, went to find darl... he's sick too... i think it's his fault tat i fall sick too waha~

CHEERIO~

Saturday, May 12, 2007
went to sentosa today... wasn't the kind of super fun day... haiz... i kindof messed up the day... i almost lose darl forever... i did sth so very unforgiving... haiz... i almost killed him... he almost drowned cos of me... so super guilty & sad... i swear i din do it on purpose... i din know such accident will happen =( really sry... darl... ssobzz

i super hate myself now... i won forgive myself... no matter wat... i'm sorry...

if it wasn't my stubborn self, my selfish act... nth of such will happen ='(

Happy Mother's Day in advance...

Friday, May 11, 2007
tears gathered beneath tat brown eyes
heart aching, feelin so insecure...

sch was fine after i made a nuisance of myself by breakin down jus cos the pe teacher is not there in the office yet to help me open tat gym door to retrieve my watch... but it means so much to me la... i'll cry out loud the whole day if i really lost it... i dun care if i made myself look like a big crybaby in front of everyone...

shared a pepper lunch meal with sam... jus the 2 of us... isn't tat sweet... lol! i jus luv steak!

i made the initiative to go find darl... buck up with raymond... thanks to him so much for helpin me keep the secret & to stall time... but as expected... i jus knew wat ur reaction will b like... but tat wasn't really wat i expected, u dun really look happy at all... i expected sth more than jus an 'okay la'...

went to tampines mall to watch 'Bridge to Terabithia'... i dun care wat other's comments & opinions were for that movie... i jus luv it... it's like Narnia... so full of magical stuff... altho it's all imaginary but it's nice... the storyline... the effects... the 2 young main leads are so gd lookin la... i luv lessie's eyes... super nice... =)

i'm tryin hard to maintain our relationship... i jus hope u dun start givin up at this time... if it's over again this time, it will mean forever... everything u said jus made me feel more & more insecure... u dun understand why gerls feel this way, & wat said will let us feel down... we get upset for a reason, not unnecessarily...

Wednesday, May 09, 2007
had my first track trainin! gosh! i slacked so much la... but was a gd workout =) long time nv train... my muscles bit aching... cnt! mus train harder... competition's end of july... cool~ i luv comptitions =D

upon hearin my track mates sayin how fast & how gd other colleges & campuses atheletes r... the more i wanna push myself to do beta... =) the competition's gonna be in simei! super nice la! haha luv tat idea... jus hope our coach will put more effort into our track trainin... JIAYOU!

i dunno y u r so mad at me... i seriously dunno wat i did tat pissed u off so much... i know i did sth so wrong tat made u so angry if not u wouldn't b so so mad de... i'm sry darl... but could u pls let me know wat i did?? at least i understand why i was at fault...

Tuesday, May 08, 2007
i guess i hav to giv up my desire to go to vietnam... suddenly feel like takin this big rock off my shoulders... dun feel like stressin myself & forcin myself to squeeze myself dry for that money... so i'll jus giv up my chance for tat trip... hope there's another more interestin trip & i'm gonna b rdy with the money for it if there is =)

CHEERIO~

had a gloomy day today... not happy at all

wasn't feeling cheerful in the mornin...

my mood slightly lightened up when darl wanted to meet up... miss him so badly... so happy to see him when we met... but he's like the whole person without the soul like this... looked so listless & lethargic... then my mood dampened alittle again... we had alittle fun yet we also had some bickering...

& it ended up to be a sad day for me...

i tot u will come back to look for me... at least i believed u would... but i was so wrong... u din... i knew i was the one who was in the wrong... but i nv xpected tat u wouldn't even giv me one last look before the door closes & the train departed... i felt super duper sad... with every negative tots fillin up my mine, tellin me tat u dun luv me anymore... i dun feel concern & warmth the second i see u today... felt so insecure... maybe u're jus tired frm all the hard work ytd... but still i didn't like tat feelin of being left there alone... i dunno y u bear to do this to me... dun u feel pain doin tat? i know i feel a really sharp pain today when u jus left without even lookin up at me...

i'm sry for my stubborn behaviour & my childish act... but u also dun understan wat i wan & xpect frm u... haiz... nvm i'm not anywhere beta too...

Sunday, May 06, 2007
first ndp trainin... & it's fun fun fun! ^^

but haven started with my playful self yet... afraid tat the others won get used to my silly behaviour... so made sure i behaved myself... but i really wanna let my wild side out... rawr!

it's gonna be mama's day soon... =) dunno wat to giv her... haiz... no money... our 3rd yr anniversary also comin le... wat to do... sigh!

an almost empty bank account... & both my parents dunno bout it... saded lo... no money, even mama's day i also hav to work... dun wish to ask them for money unnecessarily... another wk n i hav to pay part of the vietnam trip money le.. =( how to fork out the money... anniversary present also need money... there's more things comin up soon... everything needs money... wat to do... waaaa~ but lucky celebrated my mum's birthday recently... so i'll jus share a gift with my bro hehe

i need more money... i need more time !! somebodyyyyy saveeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

Thursday, May 03, 2007
HAIZ~

wanted to go look for u... yet u chase me hm instead... so sad lo... went hm with a gloomy face

projects startin to come our way le... & loads more will b comin... so mus b prepared for the worse... haiz... suddenly feel tat my schedule very packed & tight... jugglin with work, sch, projects, niteclass, my upcomin cca & ndp trainings & Os... lol me & my naive thinkin... still wanna take up a 2nd cca... TSK!... how to handle this many things... after this mth will hav cca trainin twice a wk... geez~ gettin stressed up jus thinkin of it... frens r a must hav durin sch days... dunno how life would b if i hav such tight schedule & without frens cheerin me on... jiayou ba~ i believe in myself & i cnt let down those who put faith in me ^^

there's more events to come in the future =D awaitin for them hehe

was suppose to catch a movie with sam & the rest... but din manage to fufil it... stupid of me to forget bout checkin the show schedules... bah~ someone hit me!... i'm certain tat i'm born bein blur... my sotong-self is back again... how nice -.-

Wednesday, May 02, 2007
woot~

IT"S MAY!!!

there's loads of nice movies this mth... god damn it... y always all out at one go... ppl no money for movie marathon sia... geez! saded...

spiderman3 . pirates of caribbean - at world's end . bridge to terabithia . blades of glory . shrek 3

who wanna watch with me =D

RAWR!

i wanna sell my comics... but noone wanna buy... who knows any comic shop who would buy my comics... pls let me know.. sobz~ i can't bear to throw them away... & one of them is only a mth old...

hope everyday will a brand new day for me & you ^^

i hav dark circles le!!! AHHHH~ how can

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