| Monday, March 31, 2008 |
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Am i still loving you? Expecting you to realise my love Not gonna force anyone into accepting anything |
| Sunday, March 30, 2008 |
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I swear this wasn't my week Lady Luck's obviously chose to go on a holiday during this period of time Had red wine spilled all over me during work Scalded my fingers just this morning Everything around me isn't working successfully Wanted to let you know But i know it doesn't matter to you at all I'm just being careless & super dumb to push myself beyond my endurance limit Would you do the same for me if it's just me & not her?? I'm so afraid i'll collapse sooner or later But inside me just doesn't want to stop pushing Why do i still want to behave this way Being so stubborn and all When the truth is just right in front of me He doesn't love me anymore Or should i say at all I'm just an extra Always there when needed just in case It's always the same since in the past I just couldn't guarantee i got his 100% love Maybe i gave in too much Which i shouldn't actually have I still love him & miss him But so what It's all just one-sided Face it, Girl! |
| Saturday, March 29, 2008 |
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Disappointment Till now i have always been stuck in my own world Always thinking of the impossibilites Hoping for them to come true Knowing it would never will I nearly lost my friends I'm just a girl who would never get someone special I'm just a girl who never have someone to get for No more lonely, no more just me No more crying, no denying These is what i wish for I gave up on myself I'm silly I'm stupid But i'm true to you I'll always be with you And i promise i will I broke everyone's heart I loved someone I yearn to be loved Why is it that i'm always giving But not receiving any back I'm worn out I occupy myself by pushing my endurance level to the max I'm practically putting my health at risk But i rather be out moving around Than being stuck at home wondering, crying I'm contented just by the smile on your face No matter how tired i am I'll have the sudden tinge of happiness Whenever you look to my direction & give me the big wide grin I feel so happy with even just a small amount of concern from you I actually thought i could have you back Dream on~ Maybe you're really not worthy for me to shower you wholeheartedly Maybe i should just let go Even if it means killing me so deeply ILOVEYOU so, but why don't you ever realise it I don't want to be just another fling Memories are beautiful when it's left untouched Yet i always wanted to tamper with it Putting myself into a dilemma instead I'm the one who puts myself into all these heartaches & torture I'm the one to blame I don't want to be just a friend I don't want an indefinite answer I don't want to hear 'maybe' coming from you I don't want to be taken for granted I want you to love me again But it would never happen at all |
| Wednesday, March 26, 2008 |
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All i can say now is that I'll always be here for you Like how i always have been before It really hurts me to see you behave like this If going back with her will make you happier I would really hope you'll both be back together As long as i see your genuine smile Don't make us worry for you Not everything ends up the way you want them to be Maybe it's just not meant to be My existance meant nothing Every corners of your heart is already occupied All i can do for you know is to accompany you by your side I thought i had gotten over you for good I thought by falling for some other guy, i'll forget bout you But i was so wrong I was totally mistaken Every piece of my memory reminds me of you Just like how it reminds you of her You'll never understand why Bcos i don't even know it myself But i only trust one voice My heart Be Strong You'll get over it soon enough |
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Losing precious sleep every now & then Looking like a zombie almost every single day I'm so damn tired Working so hard everyday But never would be able to see the money Lol i don't even count how much i actually earn per week Baobei Don't shock me with silly decisions ah I'll strangle you alive with my bare hands if that's the last thing i do Don't think so much There's nothing to worry about Really Love is so unpredictable Once you both were the most loving couples Another time you'll be walking in different directions I understand now that a relationship can only withstand obstacles with trust, being understanding & initiative Just hope my own happiness is just round the corner, not too far from me I wish i won't appear so weak & gullible So sick of always being the naive freak If i could just protect myself without depending on anyone If i could just be more decisive with what i'm suppose to do ILOVE myself I won't ever give up on myself even if everyone gives up & walks away on me But i don't think anyone will walk away on me Hee~ what they had actually done for me, had shown how much care, concern & love they have been showering me with ILOVEYOU HUGZ So sweet of pong to cook for my babe Happy 5th month Anniversary! Time's passing by so quickly, ain't it? Just wish that happy moments would always stay the same as it is HEARTSYOU |
| Monday, March 24, 2008 |
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Found a new motivation to move on But not quite ready for it yet Anyway don't think i want to pursue it Like no point No future... Feel so tired Won't be able to take it any longer But i can't stop I can hear it Money's calling for me |
| Friday, March 21, 2008 |
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That's the end of my emo times... I've emo-ed enough & i'm back! Well, i guess i'm back Anyway... everything happened real quickly But, well, at least the worst times are finally over & i really appreciate all the support & concern from my dearest friends ILOVEYOU guys so much I really don't think i can make it without going into depression... lol You guys have helped me so much, regardless it's financially, physically or mentally Hugz~ I've neglected so much for these past few years & i think it's time for me to really move out of my pathetic square one Something's are simply not destined So why torture myself for holding on so tightly Even the string will break if you hold on to the kite too tightly At least we're friends now And i'm already contented I believe i'll meet some other nice guy one day Like everyone told me, i deserve so much better Hugz & Kisses to :
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| Tuesday, March 18, 2008 |
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all along i thought i understand you but it seems that i don't you hurt me so badly that i'm determined to give you up once and for all you misunderstood my point but honestly, i give my blessings to you both giving your every single bit of love to a person without getting any returns is an extremely dumb thing to do i did so much for you all i want is you to be happy all i wanted so much from you was just a simple thank you grant them happiness |
| Thursday, March 13, 2008 |
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i thought i had everything... but now i feel that i have nothing... what have i actually done to deserve this... i'm shaken but that someone i needed most now would never be there for me anymore... being the good person isn't perfect at all... everyday i'm thinking... what am i staying alive for... i flunked in studies, i'm not good in perfecting myself, & i don't seem to do well in relationships... aren't i worth for your care & concern... why do you have to break my heart every now & then... why give me false hope when i need true love... why do i get all this shit when i don't deserve them at all... why do you have to make it look like my life is worthless... everything i've done for you, every care i gave you, every love i express to you... it doesn't seem enough to you... where were you when i needed you so much this time... i felt silly to think that i could die without you... but who am i to you now... a nobody... just a piece of worn & torn rag, being thrown aside after use... i always hoped for a miracle to happen i always thought you would return & love me again i would never have thought this was what you're repaying me for all i've done for you the last thing i want from you now is your cold shoulder don't be that bastard everyone thinks you are i've lost myself |