| Wednesday, March 29, 2006 |
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feelin so wierd this days... after receivin my CA results, was so devastated... xpected myself to fail... but nv xpect myself to fail so badly... geez! only 2 subs pass... art & com. hum... for 17yrs since i started education... it was my first n only time i failed eng + chi... i know it's jus a CA but... it's still hurtin to c urself fail so damn badly... i dunno y... but nobody can help me only myself ='( sobz... so sad... i really dunno wat to do... until my mum said sth tat really made me cry real hard... 'jus do well for my sake... can u?' haiz! i know many ppl cared bout me... mr ang... even navin... lol! but i still hav not found the genuine motivation to get me to settle down... arranged seats yesterday... sitting in the first row right in the corner... lol lonely ah! huizhen, kaihui & shuzhen got to sit together... dunno y... but nvm la... at least they scored quite well... so nvm... stuck with safie beside me, melissa behind me... but i dun mind... dear wanted me to go back to carol's grp... he thinks i would find myself more comfortable & suitable there... guess, he really understans me well... yes... i agree tat i feel more comfy being with them... maybe it's jus the personalities among steph's grp & mine tat we dun click... jus find it hard to blend in with them... i'm more happier with carol... but i can't choose to leave steph's grp as i dun wanna be one who is hated by everyone as usin frens as a substitute... i dun wan tat to happen to me... i've failed to be a gd fren... a gd gf, a gd daughter... regret alot of things... really... today was the day we as the CECs... chairperson executive committee performed & hav an investiger... geez... first time hav this thingy in sch... anyway received somekind of a tag... lol... so damn ugly... i think they wanna change it to a collar pin... but need money... i dun mind... so as not to wear tat tag everyday... boonchuen was so cute bluchin... keep askin ravi to shut up when he disturbed him lol! first time saw this... aww~ lol! ravi & i also blushed... haha so paisei on stage... lucky jason they all nv really go shout out 'da sotong' lol! if not i'll really be blushin like a big tomoto... haha! dear cut his hair le... ummm... dunno how he looked like... lol! but it's his hair... he's rite... so it's jus a matter of he liked it or not =) met the NUS students for their survey... lol jus took some pics tat's all... n anyway they're very frenly... dun look like they're NUS students haha! cool~ they said if they succeed in their proposal thingy... my photo will be posted up in brochures & posters... ahhh~ like carol said... tat day really will make me 'famous overnite' haha~ cool tot anyway =D (^_< )\/ luv, lyn =u make my life worthwhile= |
| Thursday, March 23, 2006 |
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aiyo... i keep on makin dear angry... i think i've been tying him... as in... always wanna bother this bother tat... i also dunno y... like afraid of sth... dun wan him to smoke & drink too much... cos i really meant him well... i dun wan his health to turn worse... i really wish tat he will mean it when he says he wanna quit smokin... not only maybe... & not say say only... haiz... but it's his decision... i dun think he wan me to interfere too much also... sigh~ nvm... dun dare to xpress my feelins also... carol told me to cherish him well... yeah... i tot so too... i always say i won be sad if i lose him... but maybe i'm jus deceivin myself... maybe losin him means losin part of my life... haha altho won be tat serious la... hmmm... sian~ tomolo will be a bz day... tired ah... haiz! how's the pics... lol~ nice rite =D today's payday! woohoo~ mus save money~ ( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =u make my life worthwhile= |
| Wednesday, March 22, 2006 |
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i know u all tryin to be nice to me today... thanks =) but pls... dun force urself to do so... haiz... dun wan make ppl feel miserable... sian ah! still dunno how to finish my compre... so difficult to do... argh! attendin maths tuition startin frm next mth... ahhh!!! dun like tuition =( i'll jus post some photos n end today's update =D this is my class 502  there is zan, nana, fatin, anna & mel  durin art excursion  durin first day of career talk with coach andy  durin 2nd day of career talk  durin 2nd day of career talk part2  delifrance de custard... yum~  in mrt with adrina, joan & naomi  siblings for life  mickey mouse de sweet  the shoe i adore  my pri schmates  ZhangZhenXiang & LinXiaoPei  me with the 70s specs... cool~  dear's gift to me  cute & sweet  (^_<)\/ luv, lyn =u make my life worthwhile= |
| Tuesday, March 21, 2006 |
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watched 'Dorm' with wilson today... almost din meet him jus now... waited for like almost 2 hrs for him... at first said wan meet then ltr cnt... then in the end still met... lol! cos he's doin sth important... sth bout army de... haiz... startin to suffer in sch le... ha... guess who told ppl i changed... this time is kaihui... i jus dun get y ppl wanna comment so much bout how i changed... rather than tell me bout wat went wrong... y sia... maybe i should stop all those gossipin, offendin comments or maybe jus stop tokin in class... therefore i won offend anyone at all... if they dun care bout me then so be it ba... finally voice it out le... altho not to these ppl... but to dear... thanks... he's been thinkin y this happen also... thanks dear... ppl started to avoid me in class... slowly i'll be fated to be alone... haha... ppl always say life is meaningless... i doubt it... but now i agreed to it... life is starting to turn meaningless... the show dorm was quite nice... partly bout frenship... jus knew tat my frens circle sux... really... ( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =u make my life worthwhile= |
| Monday, March 20, 2006 |
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haiz... feel so insecure... like sth coming to an end soon... not in the rite mood... dear is now like part of my life... it's partially cos of him tat i'm wat i m today =) thanks dear... he did so much things for me yet i disappoint him time n time again... he makes me smile when i'm sad... he does surprisin things without me realisin... startin to luv him more & more each day... but sometimes there's this feelin tat made me feel so insecure... dunno y... haiz... so long nv update blog... recently was dear's & huizhen's birthday =) then alot of ppl hav quit pizzahut le... like yonghao, lina & irna got terminated... geez... y sia... nvm... tomolo's sch le... yet i haven even touch any of the holiday assignments... lol! ( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =i feel so invisible= |