Tuesday, October 23, 2007 |
just past 18 yrs old a few days ago... LOL! & i'm so excited bout it =] plus my allergy to alcohol is finally gone! but i still can't get used to the taste bleahz i can't wait to throw away my sec sch books... take up alot of space in my rm... actually i can choose to throw them away now... but had the feelin tat if i throw them away before the xams r even over, i'm definite to get a F9... LOL but who knows... maybe i'll get a F9 even without throwin the books away... ha... cos i din even study for it... -.- the past few days were really fun altho alot had happened... the celebrations, surprises... Ooo... i luv surprises hee... thanks to all my frens, especially bell, my baobei & pong... & of cos ppl who really care =) i think i'll still be totally depressed without them la... after my great 18th birthday is over... next will b my bro's sweet 16th birthday... wanted to plan sth big for him... but my dad's leavin to work overseas at the end of this mth =[ he'll be away for 6mths... i'm so gonna miss him la... he's gonna miss the celebration too... haiz i wanna go suntannin & kbox again! maybe buffet when my mood's much beta & my appetite turns turbo... isit fate tat we met again in the train, this time we'r both headin hm... & the most coincidental thing is tat he lives jus nearby, if i'm not wrong, jus across the street... oh god! wahahahahahaha! i hope we meet again hee... jus by seeing him frm the corner of my eye makes me happy Don't tell me u love me when you don't... I only accepts & listens to these words if you truly meant it. I want nothing much from you but the truth... The truth of true love. |
Thursday, October 11, 2007 |
for the final time i've decided... i've given up on u le... not as a fren but as wat we r before... i'd realised the fact tat i'd truly lost u & would b able to hav u back again... cos somewhere in my heart i know this time u really made it clear... 'since u can take it ez the last time round, y not now?' geez u'r rite pal... if i'm a gd gf, like all of u said, then y did he turn to like other gerls instead? i hadn't done enough to make him happy, had i? i always hav all sorts of ques in my mind... but now i think i'd to stop in order to b happy... i'll giv my support to watever u do... i'll still giv u my care & concern... but this time i think i'll hav to stop luving u... the hurt tat u gav me is like my world came crashing down... but, yah... i'll still forgive u thou... like i always had before... but pls, dun come back & hurt me again... i jus wish i can find a beta guy since u'd given me this chance... & i hope u know wat u r doin... knowing each other 3yrs plus, i dun wanna see u get hurt... i still hope we can still maintain as frens... i'll start to earn ur trust n be ur best fren... & one more thing... dun play with my feelings again... i really dun like how u joked today... it's quite hurtin la... u know my heart haven fully heal, bastard! saw this really cute guy working in ritz fitness centre... his smile is so damn gorgeous la ^^ hope can hav another chance to see him again... LOL! should hav asked for his name WAHAHAHAHA! got chance.. work under the same company =D saw another cute guy at the same time, a singpost delivery boy... hehe simply cute! eye candies really make a gerl's day... |
Monday, October 01, 2007 |
y do u fuking wanna lie to me... u denied everything when i confronted u... u sia.. i hate u so much now... jus admit tat u liked her... so now i'm so convinced tat it's cos of her tat u broke up with me... i'm so disgusted by wat u did now... to think tat i still trusted u so much... u'r a fukin bastard! i dun mind if she's beta than me but y do u wanna do this to me... when she's not even worth u liking i did everything i can to maintain this relationship shower u with luv... do little things to make u happy but now i realised, all tat i had done before is jus my stupidity i know i'm stupid enough to still wanting to luv u... i still hope u will know ur way back... u hurt me time & time again... but i always wonder y i still luv u so deeply... this time u hurt me the deepest... if u chose her to me, then all i can say is gd luck to u... all i can say is i still luv u... but when u made it clear tat u luved me no more, i knew there's no way u'r comin back i wish i wish with all my might tat u will come back to my side |