my Life

Thursday, July 23, 2009

I just realised... I LOVE CATS more than dogs! But not more than bunnies =D

The sudden thought of 'Life's meaningless' hit me.
I work my ass off every single day.
My money don't seem to grow but keep going down instead.
I really hope October's just tomorrow.
I seriously need a break, a well deserved break.
Fcuk... I feel like crying.

And ever since the business started picking up, it's total hell.
I'm not trying to complain. I'm glad the business good now.
I smile everytime i see how much we earn these days.
I feel the sense of satisfaction.
But everytime i know my friends around me can go out & have fun, all i can do is envy and pout to myself.
I don't blame anyone that i'm being left out.
It's just that i wanted so much to be part of the outing.
No money to spend is so much better than no time to spend.

Try doing what i'm doing now, and you'll definitely understand why i'm ranting like a bitch now.

I don't need attention. I don't need guys. I don't need a boyfriend.
For now, i just need a well-deserved break, either to relax or have fun.
JUST ASK ME OUT, EVEN IT'S JUST SUPPER CAN?!
RING ME! RING ME!

The accumulated tiredness made it more difficult for me to put on a smile, but a knitted brows instead.

Just an adjective to describe: Fucked up customers!

Okay the above was actually what i wanted to post the day before yesterday, before the com hanged.
I'm feeling so much better now, since yesterday.
The pink gerberas in the restaurant, my hungry son which kept meowing non stop, funny colleagues to keep me company throughout and of course, the appreciation of services from last night's customers, just made the whole day of work worthwhile.

Labels: - Korea. Korea. Korea.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The advertisement's up.
Business's buzzing since Wednesday.
My legs are going to break any time.
I'm so freaking TIRED!!!

But still... have to work...
Sobz...

I'm so damn deprived of FREEDOM!
I need to get out...
I had fun at work...
But sometimes it's just too much.
I know i'm wierd.
I like to work, but i want/desire loads of breaks.

Haiz. I occupy myself with sooo many things everyday, yet i'm still thinking if i still hold anything towards you or not.
I know the feeling isn't strong.
But sometimes, i feel that i want that attention badly.
Just to know if you still care or not.

You returned the things i left at your place today.
It made me wonder if you still had the things i gave you hung up in your closet.
A teeny weeny prick in my heart, but i'm just glad you hadn't send Chip to me, yet.
Till today i'm still thinking, what have i done wrong to deserve all these.
Maybe i really had done something wrong.
Then i shall say, i'm deeply regretful and sorry.
Just don't ignore me, will you?

I know everyone's concerned.
But i'm really alright.
Well, at least i think i'm alright.
I'm fine being single now, and i'm not ready getting into another one yet.
Firstly, just let me get my break first.

Now i feel like being all alone in a resort where there's golden sand, sparkly clear blue sea & many more beautiful sceneries.

Labels: - Can i just want you?

Thursday, July 09, 2009

The only thing i can think of now is... I chose the wrong day to take my off.
Unauspicious day.
Next time, i need to use my life lines wisely =(
We live the same fate eh?...

I totally let 2 fucked up 'human species with dicks' ruin my long awaited off day.
Bah~ Whatever la.
I'm born to suffer, i guess.

I'm so glad i have Bell, Josh & Ed, looking out for me every now and then.
I'm so looking forward to a day we can agree on, and go on a trip soon.
Get out of this stupid place and kick butts!
Wahahaha~
Of course... Not forgetting my lovable peeps, be it the loooong 11years (& definitely still counting) of unbreakable friendship or the looong 7years (i'm still counting... ^^) of more fun & laughter friendship or long~ 2.5 years (you know who you are... My kids' godma!) of crazy lovin' friendship.

I HEART you guys ^^

Labels: - My Mr Right... Gone.

Monday, July 06, 2009

I HATE falling sick!
The first thing that comes into your mind once you open your eyes in the morning..., 'Shit... I don't feel good...', was never good.
Didn't expect it to get worse in the afternoon while working.
Imagine you almost blacked out while taking a customer's order, and you're practically 'swaying' when they're taking their own sweet time to think bout what they wanted to eat & repeatedly wanted you to repeat what they had ordered already.
It's friggin' not a good feeling!

Was sent back in the evening.
Dropped dead once i stepped home.
And the temperature got even higher the more i sleep.
Woke up 2hrs later. Noone's home yet.
And it's a god damn Sunday! I don't even know where to find a doctor after 9pm.
Felt as though my head's splitting into 2. Every part of me was burning.
And i thought the burn would make me even more retarded.
Broke into tears, and i called papa, telling him what happened.
Made him even more worried. Damn guilty.
It rose up to 39.2 degrees. For that split moment, i thought i wouldn't be able to see today.
Slept and woke up several times.
Mama changed the wet cloth on my forehead many times.
Fell asleep at 4plus am. Woke up at 8plus am, perspiring.

Went to the doctor's in the morning.
Skipped work today.
The doctor gave me 3days of MC, hahaha! Wilson said he would be the next one falling sick if i don't come back fast.
Lucky it's not H1N1, just normal flu virus.
Was supposed to stay home.
But sneaked out to have dinner with my dearest Pri Sch mates.
My buddi's becoming a man from tomorrow onwards! Like finally~
Hahaha~
Came back feeling slightly more feverish.
Temperature went up again -.-"
Must be the rain...
Geez~

Once again, when i needed someone so badly, noone's there for me.
Sigh~

Must recover quickly so that i can be useful again!
Wahahahaha~

Haiz~
You tell me la...
How not to love you when you constantly care for me so much?!
Argh~

有一种爱叫做放手
Now i know what you meant by this.
This is what you've always been wanting to tell me =)

Labels: - I miss my kitty.

Friday, July 03, 2009

Days spent in the restaurant was so much more than how much time i spent at home.
Tiring but i sure had fun.
With colleagues who make you laugh almost every minute, what more can you actually ask for =)
And i officially name my weeks old FOUND kitty... MY SON!
Lol. I'm going to buy him a proper collar. Ribbons look gay on him. Haha!
He's a lazy and fussy boy, but i definitely still love him. The love for him just grows non stop ^^
And... eew~ but i witnessed him feeding his catch, a rat! Damn gross. Imagine watching him start off with the head, with the eye (rat) popping out, blood oozing from his (cat) mouth and the crackling noise of cracking bones (rat).
Too detailed huh~ =X

But anyway... I decided to dye my hair today! And i just did it.
Not an obvious, striking colour. But alright la. =)
Spent the whole of my first off day of July fruitfully.
Papa brought me to get my ankle fixed, had it bandaged as if it's damn serious. But the truth is, i could actually still run?!
Then had papa drove me all the way to the east side of Singapore and back to Ang Mo Kio again.
He left thereafter and i went ahead to dye my hair.
Rushed all the way to Clarke Quay to have dinner at Tampopo.
The first restaurant we went together when we first went out.
Everything's fine. Had a good time. And i'm truly contented.

I still love you

And i'll really miss you when you're away for a month.
Wthell... Thailand.

Labels: - Aaron Ang Jin Sheng.