| Saturday, December 10, 2005 |
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tired like siao... waited in the train station for like almost 1 hr then i decided to board it... cos all of them too many ppl le... hate to squeeze... so crampy... jus now after work went to find place to sit down & munch sth... actually wan to wait for seats in wisma atrium de food republic... but decided to go to amk to eat lo... i dunno wat the heck i was thinkin... keep on cryin... wtf~ hate myself... today cry... not cos of stress or kena scoldin... cry cos i feel bad tat i made too much stupid freakin mistakes... first break bowls... 4 soup bowls 1 salad bowl... freak... i jus be a gd person wanna help to clear it... act clever... not tall but gei kiang wanna reach for it... in the end fell & PIANG! happy new yr... feel so bad tat those riders need to help me sweep it up... then my tears already at the edge of my eyelids le... dave came forward to cheer me up... so nice of him... 2nd time... i send order... in the end made a freakin mess... i accidentally made a glass of pepsi spill... lucky is i nv spill onto the customers... if not i feel more bad... i still anxiously ask if the drink hav spilled until them not... then i take the mop i already started cryin... lucky the customers din notice... when i got back to make a new drink for them... i already cried in the bar... kenny got worried n asked wat happened... then i went into the kitchen to cry... lina came forward to comfort me... chinhong say 'relax la... dun cry' yaz also got concerned... desmond also... then lina told me to go toilet wash up first... after i washed my face... a gerl in the toilet saw me cryin... then when i went out, she followed... was a staff frm motorola... she looked cute & concerned... came to comfort me... keep on guessin y i cry... 'kena scoldin frm boss isit? break up with bf isit?' lol... 'mus be strong ok?' lol! then she use her hands to wipe away my tears... awww~! so sweet! really wanna thank her so much... altho we dunno each other but she was so sweet to me... =) if my bf like this treat me, i also will feel very touched... got once i also cried... in heeren... got one person... i dunno guy or ger... cos my back facin the person... he/she jus hand me a stack of serviettes... so nice of tat person... lol! actually in this world, in this small country on earth, on this small small island, there's always some gd souls with a pure heart of gold... =D if i rmb tat ger frm motorola, & i saw her, i surely go up to her to thank her de... then dave also started concernin bout me... sayin it's not my fault... it's alrite... leslie also dun like me to cry... she said she wanted me to turn strong... ya... i know ah... i also hate myself bein so emotional... actually tomolo workin de... 1to9... but wilson ask me to accompany him to go find job... i think today's jus not my day... actually God treat me quite gd today le... still let me feel the warmth of ppl around me... there was a grp of 4 customers... the fren wanted to giv a surprise to the birthday ger... so i did as she planned... then i gav her a blueberry cheesecake... of cos asked leslie already la... lol! then when i havin break halfway... kenny called me out... i tot he playin with me... but i still go out la... then the customers thanked me... lol~ i will appreciate more if u all go online to compliment me =p... no la... jus kiddin... startin to aim an anime... 'Rumblin Hearts' maybe gonna buy the vcd... looks interestin lol ( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =the Best Proof of Luv is Trust= =All i Wan for Christmas is You= |