| Monday, January 23, 2006 |
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was really worn out ytd... once got hm, had my dinner then haven 10p.m. slp liao... haiz... been thinkin bout sth, which honestly i shouldn't hav think bout... but like aiya, realise i actually dun hav any best fren... there was like this worksheet which my form teacher gav, then there was this part which is 'my best fren is ..........., blablabla' then was like suddenly thinkin... my best fren is rol gan... but... who will be the one writin my name... altho all those who r quite close to me in sch... obviously, they hav their own best fren in mind... but definitely not me... thinkin of it jus makes me sad... for xample... zan will write amy or either joslyn... grace wrote xiaofen... shujun will write either grace or xiaofen... xiaofen will write shujun... carol will write shuzhen... huizhen wrote stephanie... so nobody will write me... haha! such a sad case... who is a nobody in ppl's life... maybe jus an ordinary fren to all of them... i jus dun get it... all my past best frens... i really wanna cherish them... like zan, grace & carol... i really like goin out with zan last time... but she jus do sth tat i din like... n keep on gettin worse at it... grace... i really like her last time de... she was always with me... was sad when she wasn't in the same class with me... tot we can still be best frens... but i was so damn wrong... she had her own frens... now her best frens were either xiaofen or shujun... maybe even zan... rol gan... she had too many frens le... everybody liked her... she spent her everyday so happily with everyone... it was like haiz... nvm... when i treat someone as best fren... they either go too overboard when i treat them really nice... or they jus drift away without knowin it themselves... in grace's life... i was nth... maybe jus a stranger, sad to hear... even when i asked her to go out... she still hav to find shujun & xiaofen along... wat did i do exactly to deserve all this... every single one of them said i changed... if it wasn't all of u... would i change?!?! no!!! for now... i would jus choose to be a lonely soul... maybe i jus shouldn't bother bout all this... maybe my life's fated with jus ordinary hi bye frens... there will be no more frens to encourages me to buck up in my studies... now all i could think of is... frens r nth... ( ^_<)\/ luv, lyn =luv is not bout possession= |