| Wednesday, March 29, 2006 |
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feelin so wierd this days... after receivin my CA results, was so devastated... xpected myself to fail... but nv xpect myself to fail so badly... geez! only 2 subs pass... art & com. hum... for 17yrs since i started education... it was my first n only time i failed eng + chi... i know it's jus a CA but... it's still hurtin to c urself fail so damn badly... i dunno y... but nobody can help me only myself ='( sobz... so sad... i really dunno wat to do... until my mum said sth tat really made me cry real hard... 'jus do well for my sake... can u?' haiz! i know many ppl cared bout me... mr ang... even navin... lol! but i still hav not found the genuine motivation to get me to settle down... arranged seats yesterday... sitting in the first row right in the corner... lol lonely ah! huizhen, kaihui & shuzhen got to sit together... dunno y... but nvm la... at least they scored quite well... so nvm... stuck with safie beside me, melissa behind me... but i dun mind... dear wanted me to go back to carol's grp... he thinks i would find myself more comfortable & suitable there... guess, he really understans me well... yes... i agree tat i feel more comfy being with them... maybe it's jus the personalities among steph's grp & mine tat we dun click... jus find it hard to blend in with them... i'm more happier with carol... but i can't choose to leave steph's grp as i dun wanna be one who is hated by everyone as usin frens as a substitute... i dun wan tat to happen to me... i've failed to be a gd fren... a gd gf, a gd daughter... regret alot of things... really... today was the day we as the CECs... chairperson executive committee performed & hav an investiger... geez... first time hav this thingy in sch... anyway received somekind of a tag... lol... so damn ugly... i think they wanna change it to a collar pin... but need money... i dun mind... so as not to wear tat tag everyday... boonchuen was so cute bluchin... keep askin ravi to shut up when he disturbed him lol! first time saw this... aww~ lol! ravi & i also blushed... haha so paisei on stage... lucky jason they all nv really go shout out 'da sotong' lol! if not i'll really be blushin like a big tomoto... haha! dear cut his hair le... ummm... dunno how he looked like... lol! but it's his hair... he's rite... so it's jus a matter of he liked it or not =) met the NUS students for their survey... lol jus took some pics tat's all... n anyway they're very frenly... dun look like they're NUS students haha! cool~ they said if they succeed in their proposal thingy... my photo will be posted up in brochures & posters... ahhh~ like carol said... tat day really will make me 'famous overnite' haha~ cool tot anyway =D (^_< )\/ luv, lyn =u make my life worthwhile= |