| Monday, August 21, 2006 |
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i really screwed my eng oral big time... wtf happened to me today!!! i jus feel so terribly nervous, i jus hate myself... for my whole life, today is the worst oral i ever hav taken... wtf am i readin, for god's sake... geez! i'm stupid, yes!! i tot i can calmly make it, but NO! argh~ i jerked thru the whole passage readin... the dumb picture has almost nth for me to describe.. my mind jus went totally blank when i reached to the invigilator... the conversation was fine... but i know i was talkin nonsense for the whole topic, kindof out of point... the invigilator wasn't gd... i had nth to say n was waitin for her to jus prompt me with 1 or 2 questions... but she jus asked me a dumb ques, n tat's it! how m i suppose to elaborate frm there... jus say i'm stupid, yes i'm stupid! i'm so gonna flunk this whole eng exam... i know i shouldn't hav panicked now, it's jus no use.. sad~ blame myself for being plain lazy... god bless... i jus hope i dun screw my oral too badly... sobz~ someone jus slap me... wanna wake up frm my freakin lala land i can't finish my art... sobz~ jus kill me, i'm all stressed up now... dun hav much time, jus wish i had a remote control which can control everything, jus like the movie 'Click' i've got you, & i know u will nv let go-i love you |