| Monday, December 18, 2006 |
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today jus wasn't my day... lazy to talk bout it also... haiz... i wanted to tell u i wasn't happy tat u agreed to take elizabeth for interview & goin to go out with her, forgettin tat we are suppose to go out tomolo... but... haiz... cnt think of myself only... she needs a job... geez we haven been close this few days... i wonder if u felt anything... maybe a little lonely or misses me badly... but i doubt tat... u feelin lonely is impossible... misses me badly?... it doesn't seem tat way to me too... i'm feelin lonely & missed u so very badly... altho we'r seein each other almost everyday... yet i cnt touch u... cnt play with u... gah! 'dun like this lei... we'r at work' tat will b ur ans... super depressin... workin in the ballrm is like treatin each other like strangers... james made me cry jus now... i really dun wish to cry de... but i'm super emotional... bah! some things can be joked bout, some things r beta to keep to urself... u say until like how can u tell me u'r jus jk... after wat huston said the other time, i'm already quite sad & afraid le... geez... the fear of losin u grows stronger... maybe u won b afraid of losin me, cos u know no matter wat i'll still come back to u... i'm not eager to buy the dumb camera... i'm eager to go out with u... yet haiz... i think it doesn't really matter to u... either is it the only day we can go out before i leave for holiday or not... actually i wanna go on tues too... but i think u wouldn't like it if i tag along... |