| Thursday, January 25, 2007 |
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i've realised tat i'm startin to become someone even me myself don't know... wat hav i become... ?!?!but no matter wat, definitely not a monster... RAWR! i'm standin on the tip of the plank, which stretched all the way out frm the ship... & below me r sharks in the sea, havin their jaws wide open, rdy to hav their nice snack... & i hav 'money' with sharp pointed swords threatenin to push me overboard... & yes! i'm still on the prob of financial crisis... but i'll always tell myself this... for money, i dun care even if i worked the hell out of myself... LOL! i find myself rather stupid to argue with carol over sth so not worth arguin for... feel like slammin my face to the wall... gah!but i'm too shy to say sry... lol... maybe feelin guilty... bah~ i hereby apologise to zan for my harsh behaviour & words tat other day... i jus dun feel rite... not apologisin & live life over it... like escapin reality with a not so clear conscience... lol! like a hit & run situation... u wouldn't lead a happy life... i'm complainin too much these days... losin grip of myself... rawr! wished someone would jus smack my face & tell me to wake up... i'm startin to criticise, makin a nuisance of myself, gossip... gah! i'm like a devil sent up frm hell to hurt ppl delibrately... y sia... i'm supposed to be an angel sent down frm heaven by god to make ppl happy... lol... i'm supposed to be a gd gerl... results out by 9th feb... bah! can i be absent on tat day... cos i jus hav this feelin tat it's alrite even if i dun go... the results will b like shit... wouldn't hav the face to go hm if my points r above 30... i mite as well jump down & die... lol! choy! touch wood!i'll get to university! tat's my childhood dream ok... lol dun laugh!!!! anything's possible >=/ |