| Tuesday, May 08, 2007 |
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had a gloomy day today... not happy at all wasn't feeling cheerful in the mornin... my mood slightly lightened up when darl wanted to meet up... miss him so badly... so happy to see him when we met... but he's like the whole person without the soul like this... looked so listless & lethargic... then my mood dampened alittle again... we had alittle fun yet we also had some bickering... & it ended up to be a sad day for me... i tot u will come back to look for me... at least i believed u would... but i was so wrong... u din... i knew i was the one who was in the wrong... but i nv xpected tat u wouldn't even giv me one last look before the door closes & the train departed... i felt super duper sad... with every negative tots fillin up my mine, tellin me tat u dun luv me anymore... i dun feel concern & warmth the second i see u today... felt so insecure... maybe u're jus tired frm all the hard work ytd... but still i didn't like tat feelin of being left there alone... i dunno y u bear to do this to me... dun u feel pain doin tat? i know i feel a really sharp pain today when u jus left without even lookin up at me... i'm sry for my stubborn behaviour & my childish act... but u also dun understan wat i wan & xpect frm u... haiz... nvm i'm not anywhere beta too... |