| Thursday, May 22, 2008 |
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I'm damn pissed right now. & i don't care if i mentioned names here or not. Because i know this time, i'm definitely not in the wrong. Get this clear! This entry is specially for you, my friend, Suzanne. I hope next time, make things clear before u even try to reprimand me. To think of it, you're the one who's always drifting away from me & treating our friendship like trash. I don't know how i have offended you, but let me tell you this. The number of people you had ever offended before, aren't anywhere less. 4 years ago, i can swear to God. I treated you genuinely as my friend. I have never look down upon you, or even try to put you down. If you think i have a motive in telling you off in the past. (E.g. ganging up to bully you) You are so wrong. Let me tell you why i even bothered to tell you what i'm unhappy about you. The reason is damn simple. Because i just naively want you to turn for the better. I think you still don't know why i dared to tell you straight in the face & risk our friendship. It's because i care as a friend, & only true friends tell you the truth, no matter how the words hurt you, somewhere between those lines, it represents that person care & concern. NOW DO YOU GET IT?? I have never thought bout offending you. But time & time again, i don't know why, you're always against me. Sometimes i really think that you deserved all these spams from people. Because you never understands & never learns. Do you even know? Till just now, i still cared that you're my friend. Occassionally i will ask carol & the rest how have you been, do you even know all these facts?? Everytime you said i have changed into someone you cannot accept. So now tell me! How difficult of a person i have changed into?? Suzanne L. Do you know that you have hurt my feelings by making a comment bout me copying other people's idea as a gift for you? Have you ever thought about it before you even blurt out this kind of shit?? That card i made for you TWO YEARS AGO, That idea i have used, Came up by me & grace! Do you know how much it pisses me off that you doubt my sincerity?? Let me tell you all bout my hardwork for you ok?? I'll start with that piece of 'COPIED-DESIGN' card. I brought up that idea myself. I went around to take the photos of us. I went around to get msgs from them. I went all trouble to edit the whole portrait. If i'm not wrong, I even went to laminate the card just for your safe keeping. So all these efforts i'd done for you, are NOTHING to you? So all my hardwork & sincerity are meant to be spitted on & stepped on?? Think twice before you speak ok? Then next, the Sentosa party i have planned for you. I went around to buy the stuff needed for the party. I racked my brain to come out with a plan to surprise you. If i'm not wrong, we baked a cheesecake specially for you. I even went through all the trouble to form the words on your cake. Then another one, last year. I bought a set of fragrance for you without even thinking how much it cost. I bought a brownie cake for you because i knew you wanted & loved it. I still squeezed in time, just for you, even when i'm in a hurry to somewhere. Because it's all for you! I don't mind how much time i spent on you. I don't even bear the grudge that you don't really treat me as one of your friends. Now? Forget it ok. I just feel so disappointed. You're always biting a hand who always feeds you. I don't realise it until now. You're just not worth it. |