| Friday, June 13, 2008 |
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The first and the last thing i wanted to do was to lie in bed and do nothing at all. My mind was filled with regrets, regrets & more regrets. I felt my world tumbling down. But my mind's a blank. I missed school today. I pulled myself out of bed at 2pm. Took a long bath. And tried to dig my throat to let myself vomit. But nothing came out from my empty stomach. I just didn't feel good. I didn't feel good mentally and physically. My stomach churned & rumbled. My eyes were swollen. My throat were dry. My ears, still ringing from all that loud music blasting into them. I have the most irritating brother but the sweetest one as well. He decided to cook me a meal before we went for work. He complained bout his own cooking, but well, i think he did ok. Although he doesn't express himself well everyday, he'll always know when i'm at my lowest spirit and tried to comfort me in an indirect way. Alot of people care and worry for me, but i just don't realise. Can you love me like how they love me too?? After that, i dragged myself out the door and on my way to work. Was very late for work. I was so tempted to just not turn up for work. I didn't really smile today. But forced myself to now get distracted by my thoughts. I don't want any other guys. Just you. |