| Saturday, June 07, 2008 |
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Well, reading her blog really makes me think. Did i make a mistake? But well, a mistake or not. Usual saying, spilled milk can never be taken back. Now i realised. I'll never be able to understand you. Because you're never opening your heart to me. I never ask. And you never pour anything out to me. Sometimes i really feel that it's really wasted, that we ended our friendship just like that. We were such good friends, way long ago. Whoever changed, i really don't know. Maybe not one of us had changed. But because of all those assumptions & disappointments, we thought all of us had. I would never be able to understand. Because you're you. And well, yeah, i'm me myself. We're never be able to know what both of us are thinking about, because the truth is, we never speak up. You're afraid. I thought i've done my best. Then that's when we thought drifting away will be the best. Among all of us, i don't appeal to you. You practically broke the string that tied us together. Hmmm, maybe it's me who broke it. But well, i think it will never be unveiled. Different thinkings, different feelings, different stories. Who's right & who's wrong. We, ourselves don't even know. I just thought it shouldn't involve anyone but just between us. But i see you chose to escape. You chose to get rid of the friendship that took all of us so many years to build up. I may be impulsive with my words. But i sincerely regret & apologise. I have always waited for you to really take the initiative to come open up to me. But you never did. Because in your heart, you have already made up your mind. I've waited for half a year. Then slowly, a year passed by. But still, nothing. Sometimes i think it was silly. I was the first to become your best friend. But also the first to break it off with you. I always wonder, but never found the answer to why we end up like this. I admit i was unhappy with your flaws. But like everyone say, nobody is perfect. I know it very well myself. I admit i shared with everyone my unhappiness towards you. But i did share those unhappiness with you too. No matter how hot-headed i am at times. In the end, i would still think i'm being ridiculous. Like carol said, it's really a shame to break off a friendship which has lasted for almost 7 years. It could actually be 7 years & still counting. But if you have already made up your mind. Then well, best wishes to you then. I've said what i want to say. If you're reading this by any chance, Please do think twice. We're all brought together by fate. Destiny arranged all of us to meet. But we failed badly. Because we never cherish. |