| Friday, August 15, 2008 |
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I'm getting debarred soon... AGAIN! Wthell~ Ahhhh~ I've woken up from my dreamland and starting to work harder than before. Making an effort to show them i'm keen to continue and want that second chance. Like mama always said to me, she'd never given up on me before. And hoped i would not give up on myself. It's never too late to try again, if you want to. Her words seldom stays in my mind. Only recently when she told me what my brother said to her, then did i want to pass the whole term. I'm motivated by his concerns. I feel so inferior myself. Always have been. He's always the smartest one in the family. Being the eldest, i should be the one showing him the role model. But it ended up the other way around. No matter how badly i had done, he'll never look down on me. Although he seldom shown me the concern bout my school and my life, he'll find ways to find out what's happening to me from my parents. He's always there for me quietly, and i regret for not appreciating that. He's my little brother whom i should protect. But he seems much stronger than i am. I'm always proud of his achievements, like he does for me. He never complained bout whatever i told him to do, while i always did. He'll look out for me in a silent way. I love him so much, this is the fact that will never change. Watched 12Lotus. Well, it passed satisfactory rating, and it did made my eyes wet for that last scene where she swallowed her mum's pendant in order to prevent the guy from taking it away. The whole story was a sad life bout a girl named LianHua. I want to watch MoneyNo Enough2 and TheMummy =) Hmmm. I've thought about it. I shouldn't hold on to any hopes. Like i always told the girls, if he's meant to be yours, no matter how many many obstacles there is, you both will still be together somehow someday. Well, at least i knew all along that we're never meant to be. Waiting is a torture. Waiting for the fact that knowing he'll never come back is an agony. Labels: - Set me free |