| Thursday, December 11, 2008 |
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I've thought it through. It may just be for the better. For you and for me. For so many years, i've been stuck in square 1, not plucking up enough courage to move forward. When you started moving forward, and tried not to look back, i always pulled you back. Both of us had been selfish. Wanting to keep each other by our sides, and just stay the way we were. Even though we knew we wouldn't be happy, we still repeatedly make the same mistakes. I've been thinking. I still love you, you're still as important in my life. But because i love you, that's why i should let you go. I want you to be happy, to be able to find the suitable someone who could give you happiness. It may be abit weird without you around, but i'll try. Although we cannot continue creating more memories, i'm contented that we get to create enough memories for us to remember and laugh about when we think back. Thank you for accompanying me, protecting me and taking care of me these few years. We teared, we laughed, we played. The times we had were wonderful, counting out the bad times. But we did walk through multiple thick and thin together. Memories are strange things. Sometimes, the more you try to forget, The clearer it would be. Sometimes, the harder you try to remember, You’ll discover that it’s like a blank piece of paper. You can never find any trace of it, No matter how hard you try. It doesn't matter anymore. Do you love me at all? Am i important in your life? How come you captivated my heart so easily, Yet I can’t find a way to grab your attention? All these questions, i always wanted to know. But i think i should just let them remain with a question mark. Doesn't matter if the answer you would give me is a good one or a bad one. At least i know. I did have your heart once. I had been loved by you once. And i guess that's enough. You're the only guy i shed my tears so many times. Let this be the last time i tear for you. Then i'm going to smile and face you as a friend, i hope you'll accept me as a good friend. A person you can trust and talk to with ease. Like you once said, we both clearly knows, that you're not my type of guy, and i'm not your type of girl. Maybe you're right. But i'm still glad that we knew each other. There's alot you've told me about, and they will always be remembered. Maybe this is your way to make me choose to let go and give up on you. Well, you kindof succeeded =) Thanks. Hugz. Always remember, I, Cherlyn Lok, will forever be here, just a ring and a turn away. Always be there for you ^^ Like i always did. You once asked me. "What do i have in me that mesmerised you so deeply? What did i do to make you love me so much?" This is my answer for your question. "What is true love? True love is actually very simple. Wearing simple clothes, Living in a simple house, Simply living through the days bickering, And still, you’ll feel blissful. Just wanted to live the days with you around. That is true love." This should be the last entry i would be brooding bout you. I don't know if you'll be reading this. I just hope you understand and appreciate my goodwill. I come with peace. Not war. If we have to separate, Then let us do it happily. Get it? Wilson Tan =D Love knows how to forgive but it does not know regret. I love you with a heart that dotes on you. Happy I cried, Because my hard work Has received your gentle response. Sad I cried, Because I admit my loss That I’ll never be able to keep your heart. We can’t return to the past, yet we can’t see what is ahead of us. This is why i chose to move on. I'll make you realise that it's your loss that you lose me. Bleahz~ ^^ Labels: - My last message to you, my love, wilson. |