| Thursday, December 04, 2008 |
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You may be wondering. It's almost 2 in the morning, when i have school tomorrow and i'm still up. Right. I just couldn't get myself to sleep. Although i can feel that my eyes are heavy. Nothing seems right for me these couple of days. Everything just happened so suddenly and seemed to change after overnight. Went to Hotpot Cuisine to have Wanni's and Bell's advanced birthday celebrations. When i was just planning to bring you there some time later. But everything's just too late. And i don't know what exactly happened. After which, we went for a competition of bowling. Girls VS Guys. That's when i had a DoubleStrike on the last turn, for like the first time. Well, we had fun, no doubt. Everything just came crashing down. I know it's not the first time. But i still couldn't take it. It's still a big blow to me despite the numerous disappointments. Cried till my eyes were puffy the next morning. My pillow and teddy were wet due to my continuous tearing. I felt so miserable. But who cares. We were still ok just last week. It's just so not right. I wish everything would be back to normal. Just like how i want it to be. I don't ask for much. But i realised i didn't cherish what i should have. Honestly, is it totally my fault that it turned out like this?? Happy, i cried. It's because of your hand which, Had once promised to lead me forward. Sad, i cried. It's because of my hand which, Couldn't find the future you spoke about. Good tears and Bad tears, I've shed them all for you. Affection and sadness are both the reasons. But after you stopped loving me, Only bad tears slowly flowed continuously. I only hope after i stopped thinking of you, There will only be good tears slowly flowing And good smiles accompanying me. You walked forward, you moved on, And never looked back again. You knew what i wanted. Now it's not your heart. But just you, to start talking to me, And stop acting like you don't know me at all. Labels: - Brokenhearted. |