| Friday, June 26, 2009 |
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The fact bout you both together, doesn't bother me anymore. Although it still irks me, i'll just live with reality. You... are simply not worth it. Not worthy enough to take my smile away. Let's just say... I had never doubted you before, until today. I'm not upset because you took him away. I'm upset because you lied to me. I didn't hurt you, but you hurt me instead. Can someone tell me how i can fix this stupid situation i'm in right now? Okay... not so much of a situation. Just for once. Let me have things MY way, possible? Why is it that almost every choice i make, more like I WANT to make, had been discouraged most of the time? I thought i plucked up enough courage to fight for what i want. But it's like me, trying to pry open the door, using physical strength, but no matter how hard i try, it just wouldn't open. So what? I need to find the right key that fits through that keyhole, which then leads me to the other side of him? ....................................... God... What am i actually talking bout... I'm so dead beat. I end up blabbering bout nothing. Well... at least i added one more entry to the list. I just need more time for more breaks. I would want to go to Bali though, if i'm actually allowed to. Put aside parents' permission, taking leaves from work for holidays is already a problem. Sigh! Labels: - Felt the stab of betrayal. |